My understandings

ch. 1 the meeting

i ran and ran, pushing the crowd of people away. Tears streaming down my face as the word still dancing around in my head suddenly I was blocked by a tall, hard

 figure. I went to run around the object and I felt a hand grab my wrist, i grimced as fire shot up my arm from the cuts and scars. I didn't turn around because of 

fear of a rude remark or maybe it being someone I feared. I heard the person clear their throat and swung me around, I made sure to look down on the ground scared to 

face the person I ran into. Looking town at my feet noticing how the carnival lights danced on my vans. "I'm not going to get a sorry, I think I deserve one." The

gentle voice cracking a bit. "I.. I'm s-sorry." I choked out with tears still pouring down my face. "Woah, I didn't mean to make you cry. Are you okay?" The stranger

said with concern as he lifted my chin so he could see my face. I seen his eyes then his face and I realized who I was standing in front of, my hero, the person I 

looked up to most in the world, someone who saved me from my death so many times. "Austin. c-c-carlile?" I questioned. He smirked "Yeah.. nice shirt by the way." 

I looked down and giggled realizing I was wearing a Of mice & men shirt, then i looked up and stared at him not know what to do or say. I had to be dreaming, I was 

expecting to wake up any moment. He smiled a half smile "Well, can ask you why you are crying and running?" He sounded concered. I wiped the tear stained cheeks, 

"Just I... Just some people saying stuff, really it's nothing. I tried sounding happy. "obviously it's something or you wouldn't be running away crying, how can 

I help.? He questioned. "Seriously Mr. Carlile it's okay, just words." He chuckled, "Sorry but seriously call me Austin, and words can hurt more than punches, but 

what where they saying?" He looked sad, but understanding. My heart sank I just couldn't tell him that people seen my scars and started calling a cutter slut

and a fat emo whore. I stared at him blankly with tears in my eyes, I imagined meeting him and telling him how he saved me on all those horrible sleepless nights

listening to his music, the lyrics and thinking how everything he was saying was what I needed to hear to get my through the night. I was getting my chance but I 

still couldn't spit it out. So I what i did was pull my sleeves up and looked down at my shoes again. I heard him sigh and then he pulled me in for a hug, I felt

like it was hours before he let go but it was just minutes. My heart was beating fast and i felt nausa coming on i just told myself he was like everyone else

and he was human, so i started calming down. I put me at arms lenth and looked me up and down "Why, why would you do that to yourself, someone as beauitful and lovely

as you, how could you?" He said saddened. I shrugged and bit my lip and looked down again, I felt like a disappointment. He grabbed my hand and led me to the farris

wheel. The guy took our tickets and Austin told me to get on first when i stepped on the cart swung back and forth and I grabed onto him because i felt like i was 

falling. "you're okay small fry, I got you." I smiled and hurried to sit down, Austin sat oppistite of me he grabbed my hand that was resting in my on my knee.

"So what's your name?" He asked. I looked at him "Jazabel Henning." He looked at me shocked and laughed. "Is my name funny?" I asked kind of hurt.

"No, just a Jazzy Henning sent me a letter a couple months ago, the funny part is she was from Pensacola too." He raised an eyebrow and laughed. I blushed, "yup

that was me." I said quietly. "Awe that letter was soo darn cute, the best part was where you said you would have died if you met me and look you're still 

breathing." I laughed, "I guess so, I grew up since then." I said sarcasitcly. "I'm sure you have, but I haven't." He smirked That made me laugh hard. "So, why do 

you do that?" He asked seriously grabbing my arm and pulling my sleeve up running his fingers across them. I frowned, " I.. have had a bad life up till about a 

year ago and I have trouble letting go of it." Austin nodded "I completely understand, so what happed tonight?" I shook my head, "Don't worry about it, i'm over it."

I lied. "Well, if you wanna talk I'm here." He kissed my hand. I smiled the hugest smile ever. "You have a beautiful smile Jazabel." He blushed. Oh lord why was he so

cute! The ride came to a halt and Austin helped me off, the carnavial was closing. "I think it's time to go, let me walk you to your car." He protested. My car came 

into view and Austin pulled me behind a building and told me to stay here as he sprinted off towards my car. I looked around the corner and I seen someone running

away from my car I looked over and Austin turned around, I seen my car and I couldn't believe it the tires were slashed my windows where shattered and on the 

windsheild was written go kill yourself you emo BI**h. I broke down crying when Austin reached me he grabbed me into his arms as I cried into this chest. "Lets get you

home." I nodded and we walked to his car, he opened and shut my door for me, the ride home was short and quite only talking to give him directions. 

He walked me to my apartment we just stood there for a moment and I broke the scilence. "Thanks for everything Austin, I really mean it, you're so nice, the rumors are

true." He shook his head and smiled "No worries just my nature i guess, thanks for running into me." He smiled. "Yeah, my pleasure, well goodnight and again thanks."

I said and turned around and unlocked my door, beforre opening it he stopped me by grabbing my hand. "Can I see your phone?" I grabbed my phone and handed it to him, 

"I am trusting you with my number, please don't lose it and don't give it out." He smiled "I trust you." "Why are you giving me your number." I asked. "Because

I uh.. like you and if you ever need anyone I'm just a phone call away." I nodded my head and turned to open my door, "well, again goodnight and thanks again." I turned 

around standing in the doorway, Austin held out his arms "I don't get a goodnight hug?" In a pouting voice. I hugged him and he rested his chin on my head. I 

thought to myself this couldn't be happening then I felt his gentle lips kiss the top of my head. "I swear if you ever need anything or to talk call me." He whispered

and let go of me and smiled. "Night Jezabel, sleep well." he said as he started down the stairs. "You to Austin, drive safe." I went inside and locked my door, I 

stumbled into my room and pulled out my phone and checked my messages I seen austin sent himself a text so he would have my number. I laid down and turned on my music

on my ipod and fell asleep in less than five minutes.