Beauty from Pain

Chapter 10

“Drake..” I said, my voice barely audible, as I hid my arm behind my back. “Please.. just go away.”

“No. I’m not going away. You need to stop this.” He said. He came into the bathroom and closed the door behind him. “Melody, I care about you. A lot.” I guess he could see my facial expression change. “No. That’s not where this is going. I’m saying that I care about you and it hurts me when you hurt yourself.” My expression softened.

“Drake, I know it hurts you. But I don’t know what else to do anymore..”

“Talk, Melody! Talk to me. Or talk to Violet! She’s been there and knows what it feels like. Can’t you just try to talk instead of going to this!?” He said. His voice a little than he intended.

“No!” I screamed at him. I was so pissed at people. “No! I can’t talk to people! Not until they understand!” I scream. Tears starting to fall from my eyes. “No one will ever get it! They say that they understand and that they’re here for me; but they never are! Nothing ever changes!” I try to say while sobbing. “Even you Drake!  You are better than the others, but you don’t understand! Especially since you’ve never done it before. I am grateful that you have stuck with me, but you just don’t get it! You seem to think this is something I can just stop; it’s not, Drake!-”

“I know! You keep saying that I don’t understand but I do! Alright!” He said to me. A little more of a yell, but not exactly yelling yet. “Look, I’m sorry Mel. I didn’t mean to snap like that..” He grabs my shoulders and makes me look him in the eye. There was something there that I just... can’t really explain. He looked sympathetic and hurt and caring all at the same time. “Melody, I used to do it. Okay? I went through some things throughout high school, before you and I became close. Why do you think I am trying to get you to stop?” He asked. I hoped he didn’t expect an answer, cause I didn’t have one. Luckily he kept talking. “I kept trying to get you to stop because I knew it was an endless battle. I care about you, and I hate to see you go through this.” He said to me. Was that a tear in his eye? I was still crying my eyes out, but I didn’t expect him to cry at all. He seems too much of a tough guy for that. I look up at him -Have I mentioned that I only go up to about his chest?- I sorta jump up and wrap my arms around his neck. He made me wrap my legs around him so he wouldn’t have to hold me up. He put his hands on my back and we just kinda hugged while he tried to get me to calm down.

I don’t know how long we were there exactly, but I finally realized I was getting blood on his shirt and all over his back. I made him move his hands and I got back on the ground.

“Sorry, Drake.. I got blood on your shirt..” I said as I washed my wrist off. Not what I normally did when they were still so fresh. But Harmony was out there and she didn’t need to find out about this.

“Oh, it’s alright.. You got a washing machine?” He asked.

“Yea.. hang on, I am only letting you take your shirt off if Harmony is in bed.” I went out and she was already in bed. It was dark. It had not been dark when I went in there.. I went and got Drake. “Give me your shirt.” He took off his shirt. Which, I can’t say I was mad about.. he is not a bad looking guy. I put it in the washer and when I went back out to the living room, Drake was already on the couch sleeping. Dang dude.. you fall asleep fast. I finally noticed how tired I was. So I went into the bedroom with Harmony and actually went to sleep.

The next few days went by without any horrible things happening. Tori was still bugging me, but Reed had stopped. Which I was glad about. Thank you, Drake. I spent some more time with Ryder and Violet.

Now it’s the night before the concert and I got in a fight with mom about how Drake was staying here all the time.

“That man can’t keep staying here, Melody! What if he’s scaring Harmony!?” She screamed at me.