Amanda's baby ✔️

Chapter 10

Amanda pov...

It's been two weeks since I brought Xavier home and he crys less now. He sleeps most if the day and when he is awake he wants to be fed or he like to look around.

Today I am taking him out for a walk and he seems to be interested in looking at things. I have walked around the block when my phone goes off and it's Chief Dodds wanting me to come in as he has some news. I can't tell if it's good or bad in his tone of voice. I head straight into the station and go up to the top floor where I was told to go as that floor has lots of conference rooms.
I get called into one of the rooms and I push Xavier's pushchair to the side of the room and sit down. Chief Dodds sits across from me and says "congratulations on having your son and thank you for coming in so quickly"
I nod and the door opens and two more people walk in. They sit down at the table and one of them says "hello Miss Rollins I am Deputy Police Commissioner Martin and this is Captain Rodriguez"
I say "hello"
Rodriguez asks "are you aware that Lieutenant Murphy was sent to Russia on an undercover operation?"
I nod and Martin says "well we are here today and it was written in his file for you to be one of the first told if something happens to him and I am sorry to say but his cover was blown and he was killed around 7 hours ago"
Dodds asks "Rollins if I may how close were you with Murphy?"
I say "well it was a little more than a friendship but he is my son's father"
They all give their condolences and I am free to go now.

I get in the elevator and without thinking I press the button to go to the SVU floor. The doors open and Fin sees me so I walk over to him to say hi and Liv walks out of her office and sees me. She walks over and asks "is everything alright?"
I shake my head and she says "come on let's talk on my office"
I nod so I push Xavier into her office and I sit down. She shuts the door and asks "what's wrong Manda?"
I say "I was just called in for a meeting upstairs, it was about Declan, he's dead"
She hugs me and says "I'm sorry"
I nod and say "I feel sad for Xavier now as Declan was only going to be in his life as much as possible but now Xavier's dad is dead"
I start to cry and Liv says "don't worry you can get through this and Xavier will be fine. He will grow up with you and this squad as his family"
I nod and start to stop crying and I say "I just can't believe that Declan is dead, he did so well with staying undercover but his cover was blown and he was killed for it"
She says "these things are never fair"
We talk for a little bit and I have stopped crying and feel ready to go home so I leave Liv's office and as I walk past Fin he frown looking at me, I can tell he knows I have been crying. He stands up and hugs me and asks "are you alright Manda?"
I say "it's Declan"
He asks "what?"
I say "he's dead, Declan was killed"
He says "I'm so sorry Manda"
I smile and say "thanks, I'm just going home now"
He nods and says "call if you need anything"
I nod and leave.