Amanda's baby ✔️

Chapter 12

Amanda pov...

It's the day of the funeral for Declan, he is having the normal cops funeral so everyone is required to go in uniform. I dress Xav in a police onesie and beanie that I got a few days ago that Declan sent us so I thought it was fitting for Xav to wear today.
Liv comes over to my place to pick me up because she doesn't want me to drive. She smiles at Xav and says "he is so adorable"
I pick up my stuff and we leave.
We arrive at the funeral site and Fin smiles at Xav and says "I didn't know we had a new recruit"
I laugh and say "it's in the family"
Liv smiles and Captain Rodriguez walks over to us. He says "Detective Rollins would you be able to be one of the people carrying the coffin, the others are members of his old unit but you were asked for due to your relationship with him"
Liv says "don't worry I will look after Xav for you"
I say "thanks to Liv" and say "okay" to Captain Rodriguez. He says "good, now please get ready the ceremony is about to start.

Once everyone is ready the music starts and Declan's coffin is carrying led to his grave and the ceremony happens and ends with me getting given the flag that was on the coffin.
Afterwards we go to a bar as a ceremony of celebration of Declan's life, I don't drink and leave after ten minutes as it can't take it any longer. Liv takes Xav and I back to my place and after I put Xav down to bed she asks "are you alright?"
I shake my head and say "I don't know what I'm doing, I have no idea on how to be a mom and raise a child. I thought Declan would be around every so often to help but he won't be. I know I have the team as a family but I don't always want to come to you all and be a burden"
Liv shakes her head and says "you will never be a burden, to Fin you are his little sister. The team all loves you and Xav and would be happy to do anything to help you out. I know how hard it was to be a single mom, I found out with Noah so I am always more that happy to help you out and be there for you no matter what"
I smile and say "thanks so much Liv, I honestly don't know what I would do without you"
She smiles and says "well you don't have to find out".