Broken Rules

Friendship Rules: Don't Be A Living Hell

(19) Carolyn Grandfield

I still couldn't believe that my dad was alive and that he doesn't have an idea who we were. It makes me so sad because me and my dad had a tight bond, he was my everything. When he died, I completely lost it. It hit me so hard and now, to see him with my own eyes just breaks my heart. My father doesn't even look at me with the special glint he used to.

Now it's a glint from confusion and lost.

My mom was devastated, she lost her husband and now that he's here he doesn't remember her, us. Now I couldn't, I just couldn't leave my mother now. This was too much for her to handle, I couldn't leave.

Right now Kieran most be marrying, the doctor sent me home in the morning. I had planned everything, I was packing and ready to leave when my mother came in and told me that my father was alive.

At first, I thought she was just saying that because I was leaving but when my father walked through the door everything came crashing down. I was happy, happy to see him here. I was so excited that I ran toward him and what hurt me the most was how he awkwardly stood there while I cried.

That wasn't my dad, my dad would have hugged me tightly and tell me that everything was okay but he didn't and that's when I understood what was happening. He didn't remember me, he didn't remember us.

He had no clue what we were to him, I remember everything that happened this morning. My mother showed him pictures of them together before they were married. The day I was born how happy he was and when they got married, how perfect they were but he didn't remember.

I remember how he stood up and shook his head, turning around and left. I couldn't see my mother like this, I just couldn't. She was all that matters, and no matter how hard it was for me I had to stay, I had to give my mom the support she needs.

She needed me now and I couldn't leave her. "I know I'd find you here." I stopped moving the swing and turned to look at Kieran, watching as he sat down the swing besides me. I turned my head and looked ahead, my feet moving the swing without grace.

"You married." I told him without looking at him, my head was running in different directions. I was thinking a lot of things, one of them was that my father is not dead and that the person I cried to and buried wasn't him.

The accident where I almost lost my baby and the breakup Kieran and I had. How I cut all the ties with him and sent him straight into another woman's arms. Do I regret doing that? No.

Liar

He sighed besides me and leaned forward, running a hand through his hair. "No, I didn't. You know why?" I turned around to look at him at that, the look he was giving me was melt worthy. "Because after everything you said to me back there I still want to be with you."

"I don't care how much it takes, days, weeks, months, years I won't stop until you trust me again and let me be the person you deserve." I was left speechless after that, and when he stood up to leave, I couldn't even move or speak.