2 weeks later I was sitting on my horse, Hilary, out in the field, momma got it for me about a week ago, Lillian got one too, we both love them, I can tell everything to her. Ever since I got her, I’ve been better, I haven’t been crying as much, but when I do cry I go out to the field with her and I would tell her everything, and it seemed like she understood. I was riding bareback, she’s the only horse I can ride like that on, all of the others are too wild, ‘’Come on Hilary.’’ I grabbed her mane lightly and pulled her to where I wanted to go, when I got to the fence where Tyler lived I got off and let her go where she wanted. I gazed at the field I would watch him walk through to come to me, all the memories came back at once and I dropped to my knees and cried, Hilary came to me, I put my arms around her and cried harder. I don’t know how long I sat there looking at everything that was somehow tied to him, the broken tree branch, the spot in the field where we would always lay down, the grass is just a little shorter than the rest, the shirt laying in the loft of the barn he never took home, the one part of the fence where he used to jump over, still has a little blood from when he cut himself. I went to the loft and got his shirt, it smells like him, he always had that smell of horses and a little cologne on, I smiled at how much I noticed about him now that he’s gone. I remember how he brought me a rose he said he found walking here, I remember how he was so protective of me, and how he always wanted to be here with me. I went to the other side of the loft and reached in a hole in the wall, then pulled out a book, I opened it and there it was, the rose he brought me, still beautiful after all this time. I put his shirt and the rose back where they were, then climbed down out of the loft, I mounted Hilary and I walked her though the field then stopped. I looked up at the sky and saw there were big black clouds forming, I sat there thinking, then it started to rain, I looked up at the black sky, and screamed with all my might, ‘’Why, why me, why does it have to be me, I loved him, why did you take him away from me!’’ I laid my head on Hilary’s neck and cried again, I was out there for about an hour before Lillian came out, ‘’Danielle, what are you doing, it’s pouring out here, come inside and get dried off!’’ I got off Hilary and followed Lillian to the house, I got changed, and laid on my bed, ‘’Dani, you can’t cry over him forever, it’s been 3 weeks, it’s summer, have fun.’’ ‘’I can’t forget him, I loved him.’’ ‘’I know it’s hard, but, you need to have fun, its summer.’’ I nodded, ‘’I’ll try.’’-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Aww, poor Danielle, feel sorry for her, vote, comment please :)
