Heal You (Part II)

Oblivion

Emma

Cas appeared, a breath of relief escaping me. I thought he might skip out, leaving me to do this all by myself. "What took so long?" I joked, rising to my feet. I glanced down at my watch, ten minutes till midnight. 

"I had to check up on the ritual, make sure I have everything I need" Cas responded, a sad look in his eyes. "Are you sure you want to do this?" he asked, his voice somber as his eyes studied me for any sign of hesitancy. 

I squared me shoulders, making sure I wasn't letting my fear show. "Yes, I'm sure" I nodded, offering a small smile. "It's okay, Cas. I'm not scared of dying, I've done it twice before. I have to do this, for my friends" I ran my hand through my hair, letting out a deep exhale as I tried to keep my breathing steady.

"So you're sure?"

"Yes"

"Positive? Absolutely positive?"

"Yes Cas" I raised my voice, sick of talking about it. I was sure, positive. This was something I had to do. I couldn't let Allison say dead, and I couldn't watch my family fall apart. "Let's just start the ritual, okay?" I told him, his face casted in a shadow under the faint moon light. Cas paused, checking his watch as he looked back up. 

"Okay" he nodded, sighing in defeat. "I will read the spell and once it is read, the rings on the tree should light up. All you have to do is press your hand to the center, and you'll ignite. Then, it will be done" Cas breathed, my head nodding in agreement. 

Cas looked around the woods, his eyes wide as he paused. I tilted my head in confusion, watching him stare into the darkness with hopeful eyes. "Cas, can we start please? I want to get this over with" I breathed, unable to admit the fear that was rising in me. I didn't want to leave Stiles. I loved him too much, but the way to show my love was saving him, not being selfish with him. 

"Yes, of course" Cas breathed, taking a deep breath as he stepped down off the nematon, moving to the side. He began to read in a language I didn't recognize, the air around me shifting. The wind began to pick up, dancing across my skin as it played with my hair. The night grew darker, as if the clouds had moved closer, covering up the moon. 

I glanced down at the nematon, noticing a faint blue light beginning to glow. I grinned, knowing that it was working. My friends would live, and my friends would be happy. I let out a deep breath, looking up to the sky. Thunder shook the ground, lightening dancing across the black sky. I closed my eyes, focusing on Cas' voice as he spoke the words that would set me free. 

I felt fear tug at my heart, the pain working its way up my throat as it brought me to tears. Water streamed down my cheeks as I stared up at the dark night, the blue light below me only growing brighter and brighter. I heaved in deep shaky breaths, my body beginning to tremble as I knew soon I would die. I would go back to Heaven, and watch my friends live out their lives. 

My chest ached at the thought of Stiles missing me, only to realize that he wouldn't even remember me. None of them would. My stomach hurt at the thought, more tears streaming down my cheeks. But at least they would be safe, and I would remember them. It was for the better, and I just had to remind myself of that. 

I opened my eyes, staring down at the nematon that radiated blue, the intense light streaming through the cracks, splintering out from under the roots. Cas stopped talking, his eyes raising to meet mine. He sighed again, looking around the forest before turning back to me. "Okay, my part's done. It's all up to you" he nodded, a shaky gasp escaping me as my will power and natural instinct to survive battled it out inside. 

"Okay" I trembled, stepping forward as I wiped my cheeks, tucking my hair behind my ears. I stared down at the center, the blue heavily concentrated there. Just one move forward and it would all be over.