Double life

Chapter 9

It's been a week since the first time Alfie spent the night in my dorm. The second time we had coffee together after we woke up, he asked me on a date. I was not proud at all of my first reaction in that moment, I completely panicked and watched him with wide eyes for at least two or three minutes before I could find my voice back and speak up.

Of course, being the sweet guy he was, he had it all planed out and brought me to a romantic restaurant in town. Candles and flowers everywhere, dim lights, literally perfect! Any girl would kill to have a guy like that. And me being typical me, I was feeling worse than ever now when I compared everything Alfie did to what could have been if it were Jack in his place. Sometimes I swear my mind will ruin everything good for me with its destructive thoughts.

Tonight we were going on a double date with Liza and Jack. I didn't even want to think about it, I just knew it would be f.ucking hell to be with them. They'll get all cosy together and I would have this sickening feeling in my stomach all night. Peachy. Someone opening my door interrupted my internal ramble and I saw Alfie removing his cote, placing it on the chair.

"Hey, are you almost ready to go? We have to be there in half an hour." He sat down on the bed next to me and kissed me on the cheek. I nodded.

"Yeah, I just have to put my shoes on."

When he kissed on the lips after our first date, I was a little disappointed that I didn't feel anything, any butterflies, any electricity, pure and plain nothing. Of course I didn't say anything and just went on with it.

Ty thought this was my worst idea so far, he said I couldn't go out with a guy I didn't have feelings for and that I was only fooling myself. He gave me a long lecture about how this wasn't right and I accidently said something about Jack, Ty got really mad. What followed wasn't good at all. 

We yelled at each, not letting each other finish our sentences. And like always twenty minutes later, we made up because it was pointless to fight over this when he knew that I wouldn't change my mind anyway. He just said that he would be by my side always, even though he really didn't like what I was doing. At moment like this I remember why I loved Tyler so much, he supported me no matter what.

We got into the crowed bar and immediately spotted Jack and Liza on the bar. When we approached them Liza threw herself on me and hugged me like a mad person. As for Jack, he just smirked at me. Yes, typical asshole didn't change a bit.

"Natalie, I missed you and look at you! Holding hands with that Alfie lad. I knew I was right, you really like him! I'm always right." Liza and I went out a couple of times this week, she was almost her normal sarcastic bitch self when we were alone.

When we weren't talking about her oh-so lovely boyfriend, everything between us was back to normal. It was nice because I was getting kind of lonely and I needed time with my friends, not that I didn't enjoy spending time with my boyfriend.

For God's sake even calling Alfie my boyfriend felt wrong. I must be a damn good actress because so far no one noticed that I had second thoughts about being with him.

"Well I'm not the one who spends her whole life in her boyfriend's dorm! I called you yesterday to hang out but you were busy cuddling with lover boy!" I practically yelled at her because the music was too loud. And thank God, because Jack didn't hear what I said. If he did, he wouldn't stop teasing me about Alfie all night.

We ordered our drinks and we all talked together, I of course ignored Jack or at least tried to do so. Every time I look at him, his hypnotising green eyes lock with mine, and then he would occasionally look at my dress and smirk. I prayed to God no one noticed our glances. Alfie and Liza seem to be in a deep conversation about YouTube and were completely oblivious to the fact that Jack was almost undressing me with his gaze.

A few more drinks later I wasn't even uncomfortable with his eyes on me, burning a hole in my chest. The more we drank the less I cared about anyone catching us. Alfie had his arm around my waist but I kept my distance. Jack obviously noticed that because he had this mischievous glim in his beautiful green eyes. I tried to shake it off and participate in the conversation. I barely even said a word since we were here, neither did Jack. I didn't know how this went unnoticed since he was always the one talking the most.

"Hey, I'm going to join my friends in a club downtown. Apparently it is a new one and tonight is the opening so this means free cocktails! "She squealed and put an arm around my shoulder. Oh no, this could only mean she wanted something. "Natalie care to join me, please?" She had those puppy eyes that were hard to resist but after the little staring contest with Jack tonight I wasn't in mood to go in a club. I just wanted to go to bed and log in my Tumblr, Twitter and watch some ridiculous videos in YouTube.

"No, please don't make me go. I just want to be lazy at my dorm tonight!" I whined and it was my turn to make those adorable and irresistible puppy eyes. I hoped she wouldn't make me go with her, I was already pretty drunk and those free cocktails she was talking about wouldn't do me any good. Knowing myself and low tolerance for alcohol, I would end up calling Alfie to tell him that I would rather f.uck Jack. And we all knew that this isn't an option even if I was tipsy now.

"You're such a party pooper! I guess I'll see you tomorrow then we could drink a coffee and discuss my amazing night out without you!" She slurred dramatically. Honestly she was as drunk as I am, she shouldn't be going anywhere but I guess she could do whatever she likes. We stepped outside the bar she kissed Jack hugged me and Alfie and left. It was a little awkward now because Alfie and Liza were doing all the talking tonight and since she was gone. I was drunk enough to be okay with the silence.

"I'm going to head home. I could walk Natalie too since she lives next door." Jack beamed like it was the best idea he ever had. Oh f.uck no! No f.ucking way. I had enough alcohol in my blood right now to do or say something stupid. I don't know which one is worse.

Alfie didn't seem to mind, he was drunk too.

"Yeah mate, this would be really cool of you! You don't mind, do you?" He turned to me and I shook my head, unable to understand if he was serious now. He can't be! When I turned to Jack, he had this devilish smile that wouldn't lead to anything good. I swear this boy would be the death of me.

Alfie kissed me and said that he would call me tomorrow. I watched him walk away from us and I was officially alone with the Devil himself.

"Are we going to stand here or start walking already?" I just nodded and started walking next to him.

He was walking too close to me, our hands were brushing. I didn't know if it was because of the alcohol but I had this urging feeling to hold his hand.

A sudden rush of courage washed over me and I quickly grabbed his hand. I felt butterflies explode in my stomach and I almost dropped his hand, I knew it was wrong to feel this way for so many reasons but right now, I wanted to enjoy it while it lasted.

When I turned to see his reaction, he was already looking at me smiling. I just hope he didn't say anything to ruin the moment.

"Well this is strange, but it feels nice!" He flashed me a dimple smile that made my heart racing.

"Yeah." I simply didn't know what to say especially when he was being nice to me. We weren't fighting for the first time and it was definitely because of our drunken state. For a second I felt a pit in my stomach probably the guilt that I was supposed to be feeling in first place. We continued walking without saying anything, just savouring the moment.