Pretend; Toy Soldiers

20.

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If there was one thing I could never wrap my mind around, it was the fact that Joey never noticed the small things that Billy did to me. After all, they were best friends. I had been debating endlessly about how I would tell Joey. Would I do it here? At the dorms? How would things go over if I did?

That night, I laid with Joey in silence. I knew he was awake, his controlled huffs told me that he was also thinking as much as I was.

"Joey." I mutter. He looks over at me, leading me to turn my head slightly towards his "Yeah, Sammy?"

"I can't sleep." I sigh in defeat.

"I can tell" He chuckles at my obvious statement. He shuffles himself and turns to face me, he gently places his hand on my cheek, drawing little heart and stars with his pointer finger. I grin and turn my head towards him.

"Being around your family has made me think a lot. About us, about what I want." I feel a bubbling feeling in my chest.

"Me too, I didn't think it'd go this well." He sits up, then slowly lays his head on my chest. He looks up at me with a silly grin, and I can't help but smile.

"Of course it went okay, your family loves you." I whisper and begin to lightly comb his hair. He closes his eyes and lightly smiles like a puppy who is having its favorite spot scratched.

I begin to slowly forget about Billy and his strange actions. Of course, it wasn't completely out of my mind, but being there with Joey made me feel like nothing was wrong. It was an easy decision to make. It had to be. I could never come between the two boys, they had been friends for years. And suffered serious tragedies together. This could create a new problem.

"Joey." I mutter. He moans in response.

"I love you." I say casually, as if it were so easy for me to say.

Joey shoots up and stares at me deeply. He looks shocked, but happy. Quickly, as if it would the last time we would ever kiss again, he gently but firmly pressed his lips against mine and pulls me closer to him.

"I love you too, Sam."

GOTCHA

okay so hello, I'm so sorry for not updating wow. I started this book when I was like 13 and now I'm 16 sooooooo, yikes! I'm not finishing this chapter because it's currently 2 am and I have work in the morning!! But I want you guys to see that I do see your responses and comments, and I am going to update eventually! There's just a lot going on in my life and writing does take up some time, I'll try my hardest! <3