Pretend; Toy Soldiers

12: Rape

I was finally able to get back to class and soccer, but was falling behind. I did my sick work but was out of it. When Billy and I were talking about me and Joey doing it. I remembered what happened to me. I had forgotten about it, but i was reminded. And i now i can't stop remembering and reminding, I walked slowly down the hallways. Hearing a few mutters. Till i bumped into Yogurt.

"Oh, Sam... Are you alright?"He asked a bit awkwardly. I nodded slowly. Everything has been slow with me, before anything else was said i continued to walk back to my dorms. Once i got there i opened the door and noticed i was alone. I set my bag down and took off my hat. I slammed the door and sat on the edge of the bed. I took off my shirt and my pants. Leaving me half naked. I gulped and looked down at my body. My breathing was increasing and my eyes were watering.

I soon remembered everything

"Stop it Dale" I cried. He thrusted harder and i let out a groan in pain that continued into sobs "I told you to shut up" He said through gritted teeth and his hand covering over my mouth. I looked around, i was at his house. Crissy in the other room. Waiting for me to come play dolls with her. But i'm in here being raped. I shook my head and started to cry louder. He slapped me in the face "Shut up!" He said. I looked around frantically, trying to find something to defend myself with. But there was nothing. I was alone and defenseless.

I was now crying. Uncontrollable. I couldn't believe it. My own uncle, I remember him being thrown in jail. I remember the court room.

"You need to tell us Samantha, did this man rape you" The judge asked me. I gulped and look at my uncle who was glaring at me, in the orange suit "He told me not to tell when he was done. Shushing me every time i felt him go" I swallowed. He hit the table "You little shit i told you not to tell!" He yelled. He just admitted it. He did it and now he was going away. My dad shook his head and my mom covered her mouth. Crissy looked down, she was older but understood it. The judge glared "Guilty.. And may you rot in prison" He said and smashed the hammer onto the desk.

I shook my head and crawled backward against my head board "W-Why" I muttered. I gripped the bed sheets and couldn't control my breathing. I picked up a pillow and threw it at the window. I began squirming, kicking, and hitting my head on the bed set. I tried not to scream, but i could feel the pain i was having when it was happening. I was so small. Flashes of his evil grin and him hitting my played in my head. I couldn't hold it. He can't hush me now

I screamed. I screamed as hard and load as i could. The door flew open, revealing Joey and Billy. Joey rushed over to me but i pushed him away "Stop it! You can't do that! Stop!" I screamed pushing myself away. I fell off the bed, but was caught. I started to kick and squirmed at the feeling of someone's touch. I saw Billy holding me, He put his finger over my mouth "Stop screaming.." He said. I screamed louder and started to hit his chest "Stop it no! Stop hurting me!"I yelled. The pain of every thrust still hurting me.
I was placed on the bed, soon I saw Hank and Snuffy run in. Soon both my arms were being held and I saw Joey and Billy on my side. I was kicking till i was to tired to anymore "Hey" I heard a soft quiet voice. I squeezed my eyes shut "Guys let her go" The kind voice said. I was released and i crawled to the voice. I didn't know who was holding me but i gripped there shirt while they held me.

Once my vision was back and i was calm and didn't see my uncle everywhere. I saw Billy holding me and i looked around at the mess i had made. I gulped looked away to see Joey smiling at me, a kind smile. Not a evil grin.

"Hey.. Sam it's us... You're okay" He muttered. I nodded and hugged Billy tighter. He pet my head "I need to clean up Sam. It's okay, You want Joey" He asked. I nodded vigorously. Joey was holding up a shirt, one of his t-shirts. We stood up and i ran over to him. I hugged him tightly "I'm sorry" I muttered. He rubbed my back and handed me the shirt. I put it on quickly and wrapped my arms back around his neck "Jump Baby" He muttered. I did as told and he carried me to the window, he set me down next to him at the window

"Wanna tell me about that?" He asked and i gulped "I remembered something..."

"What was it baby..." He asked desperately. I looked into his eyes, they were pleading and sad. He wanted to help me "Joey.." I whimpered and he looked down "I-I was" I choked on my words "I was raped" I said, tears now slipping out of my eyes. He looked up at me with complete sadness "By who?" He asked softly. I was shaking my head, i started to squirm. He put his arms around me "Don't... It's okay" He said and i started to take deep breathes "Good Baby... Now, who?" He asked and i looked down "M-My uncle" I said and Joey swallowed

"You're okay now Sam. We all love you. Don't be scared of us, it scares us.. No one. I mean no one is gonna hurt you like that again i promise. I keep my promises." He said sternly "I didn't remember until i was talking about my first time... I- I keep having these flash backs of the things he did. Him going to prison" I said looking up. I looked over to see all the guys with sad looks. Snuffy was holding back tears.

I looked at Billy, who rushed over to me and hugged me. I stood up, not letting him go. I felt everyone gather around me. I knew i was safe. I had everyone here. I was safe.