Ethereal The Time Lord

chapter twenty

I am going to fix all the errors once I have that spare time. Been busy with work, kids and school. Plan on fixing it before the end of the year. I hope way sooner then that but oh well. Well here is chapter 20 I hope you enjoy it.

I lye awake watching Rize sleep peacefully beside me and smile to myself. I have not been this happy in a long time and it is long over do. This man who is not my light, who is not able to save me has given me peace. It my be a small piece of peace but with this peace I have begun to feel hope again.

Hope for a future I know I will never see. A future full of love and happiness. A future with a man who is not my own. A man who will find love in another as the man I loved did. Ha love. Love is for the weak. I want to believe love is real and that love makes you strong. But love blinds you and makes you weak.

I will never be weak again. I must keep this Love baried deep so it will not weaken me. I will not allow it to blind me and weaken me whilst I protect all that I once loved. If Valdis found out that I love another it will take that love from me brutally. I must not let myself fall in love with Rize. Though I already know I have lost that fight long ago. I have hoplessly fall for him this man who is not agreed to love me and see past all that is bad within me.

"Enyo. It is time." Valdis says as it's dark void opens beside the bed.

Rize stirs next to me as Valdis grabs a hold of me dragging me from the bed. I do not fight it as I cloths me in battle armor and weapons. It whispered of a battle come towards it and I am to help it. I take off out the bedroom door with Rize dressed and ready for a fight. He follows me and I race from the home flinging myself into the nothing.

We fly away from her home and come up on an army. Well trained and ready for me. Valdis opens under me as it's hand grabs my calfs and it fingers dig into me. It pumps me full of it's power so much that it spills from my body. It disapears back into itself as I lean over my body covered in my darkness. My visions blures and I am shoved down within myself as my dark side takes over.

"No. This is my body. I will not loss to you." I scream out at her.

"Enyo, you think we are unable to control you because you think is to be weak. We will take from you What you love." Valdis says as it takes control forcing my dark side back within myself. She looks to me as I look to her and we float together neither able to fight Valdis.

"No Valdis I will do anything you wish please don't do this." Dark Enyo screams as she claws her way up from the inside of our mind.

"Stop. There is nothing you can do. Just stop." I say to her.

"No I swear I would never lose control again and here we are letting Valdis have it's way. If we do not stop it. It will end up killing Rize. Please help me. I can not lose him. Not when I have finally fallen in love with him." she says pleading with me.

I look at her as she struggles and see not my Dark side but me fighting to keep the man I love alive. I stand underneath her and begain the climb clawing my way up to her so I am beside her.

"Then fight. Fight with all you have. We must protect what we love." I say as we look at each other. She nodes to me and we climb further up as Valdis grabs is dragging us down again. We stand together at the bottom and fight Valdis. We climb back up slicing at it's hands and continue till I gain back control several hours later.

Blood, is all I see. I am covered in it. It's metallic smell makes me gage. I close my eyes my head falling back as I clinch my arms my legs shakinging threating to give out. How could I let this happen? How could I be so blind? I stood back and let Valdis do this. If I had returned here instead of going to Fra's this would have never happened. Oh darkness what have you done with Rize?

"Enyo." a weak voice whispers and my eyes shoot open. They fall on a torn and twisted form a short distances away. My eyes refuse to see who it is but deep down I already know. I take an unsteady step towards it and another till I fall next to the form lying broken on the ground.

I cover my mouth fighting back the bail rising and reach my hand out. Rize is lying on his back, his chest is torn open exposing his beerly beating heart. His arms and legs are twisted at odd angles the bones broken and jetting out in all directions. Some of his ribs are pocking out through his chest. I did this to him. I don't remember harming him but deep down I know that I was the one who tore into his chest and crushed his bones.

I place my hands on part of his chest that is still intaked and bow my head. Tears fall from my eyes mixing with the blood and Rize gasps for air. I lean my head up looking into his eyes and place my right hand over his forehead. I place left over my lower abdoman and sink my fingers into my flesh. "Life flow, mend flesh, sinew, and bone. Take from me and bestoy it unto Rize son of Zinyu." I say and life is ripped from me flowing from me over him as he begains to take his last breath. His bones mend back as Sinew is replaced and his flesh grows anew replacing what was torn from him.

I fall back my body taking the form his was in and it quickly heals itself. I stand slowly looking down at him as his eyes open looking for me. They fall on my legs then travel up to my face. He smiles at me and I reach down picking him up in my arms. He will not be able to move on his own just yet and will need to rest till he fully recovers. I must take him some were safe but where.

"Fra." I say aload.

"No Enyo. Take me." he looks away from me and I see the first step taken from me. "Home." he says and I feel the first cut. I have lost him. He has finally seen what I am truly capable of. He knows the truth and now wants nothing to do with me.

I square my shoulder lifting my chin and show him it does not affect me. Even though it has cut me deep. I pull on my armor of numbness that is cracked and broken. It covers me keeping me safe from the pain. My hope is destroyed before my eyes. Love is for the weak. I will never be weak enough to let it effect me ever again.

Rize looks back to me watching me as I sheild everything I am from him once again. My dark side cries out within me fighting to get out of me with a hope that she can convence him to love is once again. I watch her struggle as I over power her over and over. I watch her desperation for a future neither of is deserve. I let her go letting her have this last moment before I shut her off completely.

She takes over as tears fall down out face and my armor fall's away. She looks into his eyes and He sees her to her very core. "I am sorry Rize. This is all my fault. If I had only been stronger.." he cuts is off.

"Thats the problem Enyo You were not strong enough. You let it use you and I nearly paid the prices for love a monster like you." Rize days as I see a diferent true behind his eyes that is not spoken.

She cries harder not seeing what I have and only hearing his spoken words. She nodes her head to him. "No Rize I am not strong enough. I am weak. I let myself fall in love with you as I have only loved one other. I let you in to my shattered and world and you have paid the prices for my actions. I should have never let this happen. This was my mistake. I will take you to your family. I will never return to you or anyone else. A monster like me should have never existed. I will go back to protecting you from a far and never be seen or heard from ever again. Thank you Rize for putting me back in my place where I belong." she says and slips back within me.

I smile at her and pull back on my armor. I bottle everything back up and open my eyes as I look at Rize. "Thank you Rize. Do not think I have not noticed what you are doing." I say as his looks from me out into the nothing. "Never forget that I love you. That will never change. If you do have need of me do not hesitate to call upon me. I will alway be here for you no matter what changes between us." I say to him and He nods. His eyes fall on my own and while his is full of emotions that he does not hide from me my show him nothing.

He tried to stand and I set his feet down still saporting. He wraps his arms around my waist pulling me right against him. His lips find mine and I kiss him passionately knowing this will be the last time. I taste his tears on my tongue as they mix with our kiss. I hold him close to me as I still saport his weight and let him fall apart in my arms. "I know how hard this is for your Rize but we both let this go to far. I will aways be here just never like we where. This love between is ends today. I will protect you from now on nothing more. Come I will take you back to your family. Prepare yourself for this encounter. We both know how your uncle while react." I say as his leans back and I pick him up again.I turn leaving the battle feild and head to Marzel's home a place I have not been to in may years.