Famous

Chapter 49

PHOEBE'S POV

I dialled Tash's number and waited for her to pick up. After a couple of rings her voice filled my ears.

"Hey Phoebs how you doing?" She yawned. I felt bad for waking her up at a time like this but the recent events between Ash and I had confused me so much and I was desperate for her input.

"Hey Tash sorry to wake you I just really needed to talk"

"No that's fine Phoebe I was up watching The Vampire Diaries anyway" She reassured me. I rolled my eyes at her obsession with that show.

"So guess who showed up the other day? Ash" I broke the news to her quickly.

"What?! He's in Sydney! That can't be right, I thought he was in L.A with Louis for the tour break."

"I don't know about that but he showed up at my door only for my brother to answer and tell him I was on a date. Then I guess he must have got pretty pissed after that because his mate called me at like two in the morning asking me to pick Ash up from a club"

"And did you go?"

I hesitated a bit, scared of what Tash wold think of me, "Yes" I spoke quietly and braced myself for they lecture she was about to give me.

"Okay" She simply said.

"What? Where's the lecture?"

"Phoebe there's nothing wrong with how you handled that, I'm not gonna judge you"

"I know you wouldn't, I guess I just feel like I've let myself down by going after him. The whole reason I broke up with him was so I could stop chasing after him and his lies and it looks like I'm already back at that stage"

"That's not true. It's still early days and you're still dealing with this. He must have been pretty hurt when he found out you were on a date."

"I wasn't really out with someone Oscar just said it so Ash would leave. When I found out I was angry at Ash for even believing that I would move on so quickly. How could I just find someone else like that? What we had was difficult but we did love each other. I don't want him to think I would throw that away and try to replace him" As I let my heart out to Tash I was reminded that he had done that exact thing to me. I pushed the thoughts away and carried on, "Then I started to feel like he deserved that pain. Now he would know what it felt like to have the person you love turn to someone else. I thought that perhaps he would see what he could lose."

"You still love him don't you?" My best friend asked.

"Is it that obvious?"

"Just a little" She let out a chuckle.

"Ugh what is wrong with me?" I ran a hand through my hair in frustration.

"Nothing is wrong with you. Of course you love him"

"Maybe I should be moving on."

"Phoebe" Tash warned me against the idea but wasn't that what she had done with Harry.

"No that's what you did with Harry and Romeo and that turned out okay"

"Yes but Ash is the love of your life, don't leave that behind because you think you might find someone else"

"You used to think Romeo was the love of your life but he wasn't. What's so different about this time?"

"Phoebe I think part of me already knew it was over between Romeo and I. As soon as I met Harry all I could do was think about him and I had to keep reminding myself that I had a boyfriend back home. Yes I didn't act on those feelings but in some way I was just as unfaithful as Romeo. You know how torn I was between the two of them. I had already developed feelings for Harry but I kept pushing them away. Truth is part of me always wanted to leave Romeo but I was too scared, he had got it in my head that no one else would want me. Ash isn't like him trust me. I can see the differences between them two and he isn't malicious like Romeo was. Romeo cheating on me showed me that I was only staying with him because I didn't know anything else, but now I see that Harry could really be the one for me."

She was right, I knew that, despite his actions, Ash cared for me and still loved me. Hooking up with someone else would do nothing for me. However I didn't know Tash's feelings for Harry had become so strong.

"So are you and Harry getting on well then?" I turned the attention on her.

"Well yesterday, don't scream Phoebe, but as of yesterday Harry and I are officially dating" I could tell she was trying to hide the excitement within her.

"Wait, are you guys properly dating? Like boyfriend and girlfriend dating?" I squealed.

"Yeah I guess"

"Natasha Jones how could you keep this from me" I teased.

"It only happened a few hours ago you crazy girl, you're the first person I've told, but this doesn't mean what I said before isn't true. Don't go looking for your Harry when he could be right in front of you"

"Your right, that was just a moment of madness. Thank you Tash for putting my head straight, I needed that." I thanked her.

"Anytime Phoebe. So when do you think you will be back with us?"

"I've taken a few weeks of leave just to get my head around everything and have some time to myself, I'll probably be back sometime during the Europe leg. Kate said they've got the 5SOS boys to agree to open the shows that I'll miss so I guess you'll be meeting them soon" I explained.

"I can't wait to meet them, they're all so adorable"

"I've heard you have an interest in Luke" I laughed.

"Phoebe! He is my favourite but he's too young for me" She laughed back.

"Guess I better tell Harry to watch out"

"I miss you but I am going to kill you when I see you!"

"Love you!" I giggled as my best friend started to rant about how annoying I was.

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ASH'S POV

I swiped through my phone looking at the pictures that Phoebe had taken of herself, her smile was shining and her eyes were brighter than ever. I remembered the day she took this picture like it was yesterday. I had taken Phoebe to the beach for a day out. I remembered the way her skin glowed in the April sun. She had asked me to rub suntan lotion on her back and me being me, couldn't keep my hands to myself. I remembered the way she swatted my hand is it travelled under her bikini bottoms. That was the first time I told her I loved her. It caught her off guard but she didn't hesitate to confess her love for me.

I'd always felt sorry for people in relationships. If one them said the three words first, the other person would feel obliged to say them back, whether they meant it or not. But when those three beautiful fell from her soft plump lips it felt so real and I knew that the feelings within the both of us were so true and real.

I carried on swiping past the photos, taking the time to live each memory that they held once again. As I smiled at the hundreds of photos that the pair of us had taken it dawned on me that there was a possibility we would never get this back. I don't know how I would live if that happened. Phoebe was the light in everything I saw, she was my everything. There was no one in this world for me except for her. No one else understood me like her, she was my soul mate.

A silent tear slipped from my cheek onto the screen. How could I let her walk out of my life?

Tears stained my cheeks but they wouldn't stop coming. She was everything to me and I was so stupid to let her go.

"Fuck!" I screamed through my sobs and threw my phone against the wall opposite.

The phone scratched the wall then fell to the ground, revealing a crack across the photo of Phoebe and I.

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