Dealing with some stuff (Minishaw)

Ch. 3 - You OK?

This had been going on for 3 weeks now, Harry was sad for the most part but he tried to hang out with the guys as much as he could to make himself feel a bit better, sometimes it worked, sometimes it did not. Tonight was one off those days were nothing was cheering him up. He got involved in there semi weakly Cards against humanity and they were playing with cards that there fans had wrote. They were basically talking shit about one another all the time, but then there was a card that Vikk played that really struck Harry

I would rather have _________ than ____________ was the card and Ethan was reading

I would rater have Ebola than Harry's shit uploading schedule. 

Ethan said and laughed his usual laugh and everyone else laughed as well. Harry fake laughed but he was struggling to hold in the tears, was that what they really thought off him, was he just some joke to them?

and after two more rounds Josh had won and they had stopped. Harry was still very upset by this.

Ethan had ordered pizza's as he had lost the CAH game and that was the punishment, get everyone food, everyone was just sitting around the island and eating and laughing. Harry was kinda sad and Josh noticed that after a while.

"Harry you OK?"

"yeah, fine"

"are you upset?" Simon asked as he had been watching Harry

"no, I just miss my family, It's been 2 months since I last went home."

"it that it? I feel like there is more?" Simon said again

"I promise you, I'm fine, I just miss my family" Harry lied to them all and then he tried to be apart off the conversation but that was not really working. So he just told them he was going to bed, but instead he went and got his wooden box and went into the bathroom. He turned on the shower so the others would not suspect anything. He thought about cutting deeper than before, He wanted to end it all, he felt like he was ready, but he could not go trough with it, today was not the day.