Jeff The Killer X SUICIDAL!Reader

I Can't Do It All By Myself

A month before that incident..Your sister wrote a poem. In front of more then 100 students and parents..she read aloud, hoping you were listening from up above. She wrote how you felt..and how she felt..and the sadness..

"Sometimes someone hurts you so bad,

it stops hurting at all. Until something  

makes you feel again, and then it all 

comes back..

every word, 

every hurt,

every moment.

My past defines me.

This is who I am.

I am..unseen, unheard, unwanted..

That Is what I am..If even I am anything.."

Jeff was in the very back listening to every word your little sister said..his hoodie up covering his whole face.

Your parents were in the front row, tearing up, your mom was already crying.

"Deeper and deeper I fell within myself.

 And nothing could show me out.

How could you ever understand where I come from..

Even if you ask,

even if you listen.

You do not really hear, or see, or feel.

You don't remember my story.

You haven't walked my path.

...You haven't seen what I've seen.

Trapped in the misery of my life.

Lost in the sorrow of my soul.

Nothing was how it was suppose to be.

And a heavy sadness filled my soul.

And maybe you wonder why,

but mostly you try not to think about it,

and try to survive...

I wish someone would tell me it'll be okay.

 That one day, maybe..

I'll feel normal.

That i'll have a mommy,

who will hug me,

and be strong for me.

I know I'm helpless.

I can't do it all by myself....."

There was silence..and sniffs could be heard.. she put the mic back and took a step back. Everyone stood up and clapped. Your sister walked down the steps and walked to your parents, they hugged her as tightly as they could, crying. "Everything's gonna be alright sweetheart..everything will be okay."

Jeff watched the family with no emotion. He could of sworn he saw an angel-like figure next to the family smiling..