Jeff The Killer X SUICIDAL!Reader

He swore to never see this...

Bury all your secrets in my skin

Jeff was in your room sitting on your bed. He debated on whether or not he'd watch it. He promised himself he'd never watch it. He fucking promised, why is he doing this? 

Come away with innocence. 
And leave me with my sins.

Jeff cursed,"Fuck it..not like I feel a damn thing anymore."
He hasn't cried in a while...he really felt nothing. This was year 2...

He pushed play on the camera, he hesitated a bit at first. The video..played.

The air around me still feels like a cage..

He watched as you stared into the camera..he heard you mumble his name..

He felt a knot in his stomach, it tightened every second.

And love is just a camouflage, for what resembles rage..again.

His heart kept breaking with every word that you said. He hated himself for not stopping this. He should have been there for you. But no. He was too blind. 

So if you love me let me go.

Jeff ran a hand through his hair, focusing on every word you said. He saw the rope swing slightly in the background, as if it was taunting him. 

And run away before I know

He tensed up when you apologize to him. He wanted to yell it wasn't your fault but.. what good would that do? He'd just alert your parents..His memory of you is getting faint as the years pass, he's already forgotten how it feels when you are by him..and he hates that.

My heart is just too dark to care

He just wanted to throw the camera and go..but he couldn't look away. When you stared at the camera it felt as if you were staring at him. But he knew you weren't. He saw your foot dangle off the chair, ready to take your final breath..

I can't destroy what isn't there.


He watched as you mouthed the words goodbye..and stared at the camera once again..then the video ended. Jeff froze,"(Y/n)...I..."

Deliver me to my fate..

Jeff stood,"I love you." 

If i'm alone, I cannot hate.

Jeff shut off the camera putting it back to where it was. 

"Damn..I hate..that after all these years. I'm still broken."

I don't deserve to have you.

He turned to the window,"You..would of loved your life (y/n)..if you just opened up..Your dad is now the manager in the company..your sister is growing up..right...I hope you and your mother is safe now."

My smile was taken long ago, if I can change I hope I never know..

He quietly opened the window, a breeze came into the room. He remembered all the nights you and him snuck out. He was getting a headache from just being there..

I still press your letters to my lips.

And cherish them in parts of me that savior every kiss.

He jumped from the window safely. He looked back at the window in silence.

I couldn't face a life without your lights.

Jeff turned and started walking, his hands gripping something in his pocket.

But all of that was ripped apart, when you refused to fight.

It wasn't his beloved knife..

So save your breath, I will not care.

It was your second option.

I think I made it very clear

The metal..it was cold.

You couldn't hate enough to love.

The sound of it is deafening.

Is that supposed to be enough?

Many..wouldn't want to be near this..

I only wish you weren't my friend,
 then I can hurt you in the end.

Jeff arrived at the grave yard.

I never claimed to be a saint.

He stood in front of your grave, beside it was your mothers..

My own was banished long ago,
It took the death of hope to let you go..

Jeff pulled out a gun.

So break yourself against my stone.
And spit your pity in my soul.

"You've waited..for too damn long."

You never needed any help.
You sold me out to save yourself.

He put the gun to his head..

And I won't listen to your shame.

His heart was rapid..

You ran away. You're all the same.

'I guess this is it.'

Angels lie to keep control.

"Wait for me..."

My love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know.

"...(y/n)."

If you still care don't ever let me know.