Jeff The Killer X SUICIDAL!Reader

Just lost

It's been a year since that fateful day...

But to you, it only felt like it just happened. 

Jeff manged to hide his depression a whole lot better. But he's still...not okay.

You didn't quite go to heaven. Nor did you go to hell. You were stuck on Earth. Alone.

It's so...cold...and lonely. No one to talk to, no matter where you go or turn, so, you made voices in your head. But they weren't friendly..

You watched as Jeff came home from his third kill that night. You were telling him a story about a squirrel you saw earlier, despite him even hearing a word. You laughed at the end and looked at him and frowned seeing no reaction, though you didn't expect one anyways. You sighed,

"Just a lost little girl..." You mumbled as you stopped walking. "Who didn't matter...and didn't think she ever would.."

You caught up with Jeff, he stopped on the sidewalk. 

...The sidewalk you and and him had a fight on. "...D-damn it (y/n)!" He punched a nearby lamp post which fell in reaction to his blow,"I'm so fucking sorry!" 
You jumped a bit. Then looked down, he said the same thing at your funeral...

Your funeral..."I didn't want you to see me like that..."

All your life...throughout depression...when Jeff came...you thought you'd get better..but you never did. 

"I thought I'd wait until I got better, but I never got better!"

Jeff didn't deserve this pain. He didn't! He lost two people in his life he could never get back...what kind of selfish move was that? He told you he could help! 

"Because I believed in you. Because you said you could help me..but you couldn't...and now my life is over.."

You teared up, you regret every fucking thing. Just one second chance would do..just one.

The voice in your head spoke,"No it's not."

You growled,"LEAVE!"

Ouch. I've lost myself..again.

Lost myself and I am no where to be found.

Yeah, I think that I might break.

Lost myself again and I feel unsafe.

Be my friend..

The voice spoke,"Remember how you faked your happiness? Gave it all away to everyone else? Now you just made them miserable.."

"Your saying that i'm responsible for everyone's happiness?! That's crap!" You glared at the ground, the memories of you being alive is still there. It haunts you every day..

Hold me. Wrap me up.

Your hands ran through your hair,"I didn't ask for that! I. Don't. Want it!"

Unfold me, I am small!

...and needy. 

Breath..

Be my friend!

Hold me! Wrap me up!

Unfold me..I am small.

And needy..

You fell on your knees,"Just go away...please."