FTM: A Tricky Life

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Hi..

I keep doing things wrong.. I wish I could make my friends happy. I feel like such a burden to their lives. And they don't even know the extent of my gender feelings.... I wish I could be happier and make them happier than I can right now.

I wish I wasn't at school right now so I could bruise myself. I deserve the pain. Maybe I just need to lose connections with my friends. I think they'd be happier if I did. I'm always negative and sad and sarcastic. How could they be happy being friends with someone like me? I'm not really worth all of the efforts to make me happy.

I'm a failure. Nobody irl would let me think that but I already know it.

All I ever have to keep me going and look forward to is karate and Mr. Kahn. I know I get to see him and do karate at the end of each painful day. That time couldn't come fast enough.

School's only three hours long today because of icy roads. Well I have to go.

There's only one of you.
I need you to stay
Please
Somebody loves you
I love you.
~Sven