FTM: A Tricky Life

Ughhh

Hi

I'm having a really really really really shitty day. Nobody's calling me by my name or pronouns and I feel like my feelings don't matter because of it. So all day, even after I'm out of the closet:

"Birth name she she her her"

How can they act so accepting but neglect to make me feel good about myself. I am not my dead name. I am not a she or a her. At this point I just wanna stop existing, I'm feeling super down  and depressed right now. I feel stuck.

How can I move on if nobody cares? Just how?

I just wanna go die in a hole right now. I don't want to wake up in the morning.

Hopefully I'll see you guys later.

You guys are
Amazing,
Special,
One of a kind,
Significant

-Sven