Love Or Lust.?

The morning after.

I woke up to an earful of ringing from my alarm clock, turned it off and looked out my window to see Joseph getting dressed. Wow, he looks better without his clothes I thought to myself. My eyes widened as he turned and waved to me. I waved back, wondering what he was smiling for then look down at myself. "Shoot! Im totally in my bra and underwear!"  I quickly covered myself.
*Ping*
Text message
Joseph "Hey, need a ride?"
Me " Yeah, sure. That'd be great."
Joseph "see you in 15 mins?
Me" Yeah."
Joseph "Dope "
I took a quick shower and as I dried myself and dressed up, my mother yelled for me,"Nicole!  Someone is here for you." My dogs ran to the door barking making my mom call their names, "Ginger! Rex!! "
I ran down to meet Joseph, smiling as I said, "Sorry, my dogs normally don't do this. "
Joseph picked up my little, dog, ginger. "She's cute, but your pitbull is huge!"
Rex was watching him very closely. I said "he's not use to you. So dont be fooled, he's very sweet."
Joseph chuckled as he asked, "you ready?"
I grab my bag and walked to his truck. He opened the door for me.
Ever since that day we became inseparable, never leaving each others side.
I would always cheer for him during his games, and vice versa. Our team were champions in the making.
*flashbacks ends*
*crowd cheering* " 18! 18! 18! 18! Nicole! Nicole!"
It was my turn to bat. I swung the bat, grand slamming the ball. The crowd jumped to their feet, shouting, "Home run!!" I ran to home plate and the crowd made it known to everyone,"Yesss!! Home run!! Woohoo!!! We're going to championships!!!"
The team was heading back to the bus. I got on the bus and sat in my seat, thinking of what Joseph was doing.
*flashbacks begin *
Senior year, I  walk to Joseph truck. He was acting funny. We both got in.
"Joseph What's wrong.?" I asked as I  looked at him in the eyes with deep concern.
He looked at me and said "Nothing.."
I knew him very well, so I knew nothing usually meant something.
We made it to school, said our goodbyes then I went to History, my first class.
* Phone vibrates*
Text messages
Joseph " Hey meet me for lunch. plz."
Me "Yeah of corse. You okay.?"
Joseph "I  gotta tell you something."
Me" okay."
After my 4th period, the bell ringed for lunch. I open the doulbe doors to find Joseph with his back against the wall, and his foot propped up against the wall; He looked okay, but I knew he wasnt.
Joseph "Hey lets go to my truck ."
I nod my head and we walked to his truck. As I sat in on the passenger  side I began playing with his hands.
Me" You okay.?"
Joseph "Umm. I.. no.. I'm not.."
Me " What's wrong.. ?
Joseph. ."I lov... like you."
Me " Joseph. . I.. I dont think I'm ready for a relationship. . "
Joseph "Well we dont have to be in a relationship. . "
Me " You mean like friends with benefits???"
Joseph "Umm yeah.. yeah. Like that, but no one can have you.."
I looked at him and smiled.
*Ding!*
"Joseph we gotta go to class." I said.
We both left the truck to class and sat by each other. Our teacher, Mr. Moore said "It's movie! Day!" Now shush and watch the movie."
Joseph and I was talking through the whole movie. Next thing I know, Joseph hands were on the outside of my thigh. He leand in for a kiss but I pull away before he had a chance. He looked at me and asked,"Are you scared. "
Me "I'm not scared."
Joseph "You've never kissed before!!?"
Me "I have been kissed, Im scared of what's gonna happen."
Joseph " Ohh. Well come over today. I'll be home alone."
I looked at him with a nervous smile.
The bell ringed, allowing us to go home.
The ride was so awkward that I tried to get some sleep, but I could feel Joseph hands move further up my leg. He hit my sensitive area. When he turned into his drive way I looked over to see that my mom's car was gone. So, I walked in his house, we walked up to his room. I sat on his bed, pulling out my homework. He grabbed my homework and bag then threw it on the floor. He started kissing me. His lips were so soft. He layed me down and got on top. He pull his lips from mine.. I looked him in the eyes.
Joseph "What??" He asked.
Me "I umm umm never.. "
Joseph " You never done this before..have you.."
I became red in the face. .
Me " yeah, I never did this before."
Joseph said with a smiled  "I'll go easy. If you want to do this."
I smiled at him and whisper in his ear. "We can foreplay, till im ready."
Joseph smiled and said "thats fine with me."
He Began to kiss me again. He moved his lips to my neck, Sucking and bitting it. It turned me on even more. He took my shirt off and my shorts, rubbing his hands all over my body, Then I tugged on his shirt, singling him to take his shirt and pants off. Having skin to skin contact. He rolled me over on top of him and I started to kiss his neck, bitting and sucking it. His hands traveled down my body, grabbing my butt. He rolled over and gotten up. Looking me up and down, licking and bitting his lips. He chuckled and said " nice bra and underwear."
He started to take my underwear off. He put his hands on my spot, moving in small circles and moving his head down. Kissing every inches of my body. I felt this wet warm tongue licking every ounce of wetness I had. I let out a moan. He put my legs over on his shoulders. I put my hands on his head, running my fingers through  his hair.