Never The Right Time, Jordan Knight

Chapter 18

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"I don't think that's such a good idea," Joe's stern voice beat me to it. I couldn't see his face but I knew he was steaming, he overheard Jordan, exactly what I was trying to avoid. I expected Jordan to stutter, to apologise, to clear his throat but all he did was look to the left of Joe, staring at thin air as his face never looked so mean. I rose from my seat and took my things, walking out of the diner and making an absolute scene. The overdue panic attack had finally arrived. Feeling like my heart was hanging at the top of my throat, cutting off my air way while trying to fight back the tears that wanted to leave my burning eyes.

I found myself asking if he was going to follow me out, see if I was okay and hug me, but I knew better than to think that. The heavy door from the diner being pushed opened erupted my thoughts, turning around to view the opposite of who I wanted to see, Joe.

"What are you doing Cindy?" He asked, feeling a gush of wind hit me just like his question did.

"Nothing," I crossed my brows in a tight line. Of course Jordan didn't get interrogated, it seemed to always in any situation similar to this come crawling up my back.

"Doesn't seem like nothing,"

"Well it's nothing, I know it's nothing, I definitely know it's nothing," I rambled, almost as if I was trying to reassure myself that he's only caught up in kiss and don't tell.

"Don't go there Cindy,"

"I wasn't even near,"

"I mean it,"

"Are you seriously arguing with me about this when the bigger problem is sat on his cocky little ass probably smirking at Heidi right now inside? Is that what you are doing?" My question had him fazed, seeming as if he was trying to retrace his steps from coming out here to find me.

"Jordan won't talk,"

"That isn't my issue Joe,"

"I know that,"

"No. Obviously you don't, I'd rather next time I see you he won't be there," Heidi came flying through the door, curiosity written all over her face. "And Heidi,"

"Yeah,"

"I take back what I said about myself disapproving your possible relationship with Jordan so by all means, don't let me get in the way for something you are so determined to do,"

"Leave him alone," I nodded slowly and walked to my car, fiddling through my bag to find my car keys. Hearing the small clashing of the few metals hitting each other, my hand came in contact with the cold material and lifted them out of the bag. Opening the car door and sitting myself down in the seat, shivering from the freezing space that lacked the warmth I needed right now.

"Cindy," I vaguely heard but chose to ignore.

I put the key in the ignition and felt the cool air seep through the several layers of clothing I had on. Anxiously wanting the heat to finally beat through the sharp breeze.

"What assholes," I muttered, gripping the stirring wheel and driving back home with the loud radio music lightly piercing through my ears. I made my way through the door and saw my Dad cleaning the couch while moving in time with the music. 'Tumbling Dice' by The Rolling Stones was sung loudly by my Mother from the kitchen.

"I'm back,"

"Already?" Dad asked.

"Lost my appetite,"

"Well you are eating when Axel gets here,"

"I will,"

"And Christian called, he's got you rostered on tomorrow at 10:30," My boss, I forgot I had a job since I took last weekend off and had the weekdays at school.

"Okay thanks, I'll be in my room,"

"Alright,"

Every step I took made my legs ache, feeling how tense all my muscles had become because of all the stress I had felt in the span of 30 minutes. I closed my door slowly, walking to my record player and putting on the Dirty Dancing soundtrack. Slipping into the soft comforters of my bed and letting my eyes get heavy.

"Oh since the day I saw you, I have been waiting for you," I groaned as I listened close to the lyrics, moving on my other side and viewing the open curtains that displayed dark clouds out my window.

I let my eyes become heavy, trying to take my mind off of the mess I've been stuck in for the last week. He didn't follow me out, he didn't look concerned as I left, only heartless, which made my skin crawl. Make a move on Heidi I dare you, I heard my thoughts say, feeling absolute jealousy for a teenage heartthrob.

The continuos knocking on my front door made me jump out of bed. That couldn't be my Auntie.

"Where's Cindy?" I heard from downstairs, the little shit. In a few seconds I heard two sets of footsteps running up to my room followed by my door being pushed open in a second.

"Oh my God," I yelled, as I lifted my hands in the air and let them fall with my whole body on the bed.

"Thank God," I heard Donnie say... Of course 'he' wouldn't come.

"You had us scared to death," Joe spoke through loud breaths.

"Why?"

"You can't just drive off like that, you were upset, you were panicked, it's not safe to-,"

"I'm fine," I interrupted him. Going to my record player and lifting up the needle.

"What's the matter here?" My Dad had his stern voice on, walking into my room to intimidate us for answers.

"We're good," I assured him.

"No, she just left, got in her car and sped off," Joe exaggerated.

"Well it's not like you didn't stop me,"

"Are you deaf, I screamed your name and chased down your car," I went silent, did he honestly do that? Dad looked at me with a concerned look, I could hear my breathing through the quiet tension in the room. I looked to Donnie and saw that he didn't know how to act, he just stood there, out of place, taking so much into him not to look around my room.

"Snoop, I don't mind," I said quietly with sarcasm laced in my voice, walking out of the room and seeing my Mom eavesdropping on our conversation. I didn't know why I dropped half my anger out on Donnie but part of my feels like he knows about the kiss with Jordan. And I don't want anybody finding out.
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