As Erica and I laid on the couch waiting for everyone I couldn't help but feel somehow connected to her. It felt as though this is where I'm meant to be and deep down somewhere I might feel something for but knowing that not possible I brushed it to the side. It wasn't that she was a woman because I was attracted to females it was just that she was like my best friend or sister we were always close when we were younger. As we sat, I felt Erica tense up. I looked up at her and she was in deep thought, so I didn't bother her. My mind began to wonder back to the doctors. Although I was glad, I wasn't pregnant it made it no better that I was given something I never wanted. It hurt to know that someone I thought I could trust would do this to me. The doorbell sounded and I began getting nervous. Everybody I left behind, that had no clue on why I disappeared is going to be see me for the first time in 4 years I couldn't help but think that they were going to be mad.
"Cyn stay here I'll get the door." I nodded slowly and watched as she walked out of the room. Hearing people talking and coming near I just got more nervous but kept it together. By the time I broke out my train of thought I couldn't help but notice how quiet it was I slowly looked up and noticed all my old friends were just staring at me.
"Dang that's the kind of welcome back I get. Give me some love." Still staring amazed they slowly approached I pulled them into a hug and sat down. Out of all of them I wasn't surprised by Albee being the first one to talk.
"Where have you been? Do you know how worried we were?" I knew they were going to ask questions, but I hoped it wouldn't be this soon.
"I'm sorry a lot of things were going on in my house before I met, ya and after the sleepover it had got so much worse."
"What could have been so bad that you couldn't call us? We thought you were dead do you know how worried we were? And It wasn't like we could just drop by your house to see you cause you miss thang didn't want us in that part of your life." My long-time friend and cousin Stella started. As much as that was true, she didn't have a right to talk cause deep down she knew why. After a year of it happening my mom pulled away from the family after an incident. Shaking my head from my thoughts laughing quietly. At this point tears were rolling down their faces. I couldn't take it anymore, I'm so tired of crying and all the tears. I didn't want anyone's pity, I wanted to move, get away from it all but that is never going to happen. I just wanted not, I needed to get away and I thought I did when I found Erica, but I was wrong again. I looked over at Erica and saw she was getting annoyed and was about to speak. I beat her to it.
"Shut the hell up Stella because you should know why you may have forgot caused it happened to once but me every day. " That statement alone caused her to break down. During a family outing John decided to take me and Stella to the bathroom only he wanted to release his manly urges upon the both of us. Stella had the guts to tell but with John telling me if I told him he was going to find my other siblings that lived with my dad and do the same to them. Not wanting to take on my pain I quickly denied what she said after that my mom never spoke to our family again. "I can't take this anymore the tears the pity I can't take it at all. E baby I'm sorry I thought this was the one place I could get a way where the memories didn't haunt me, and it was for a little while, but I can't do this and everything else." I got up and headed for the stairs. "I'm just going to leave the kids can stay with you I'll get them when I'm settled." Erica quickly got up at this point she was about to walk up to me when Albee said the one thing that brought Eiken (alter ego) out to play.
"Naw E let the little hoe run it seems that's all she can ever do." Now me and Albee were never close so this didn't really surprise me it was just the fact he called me out my name. Before everything could be processed Erica jumped over the table and pinned him by his neck to the wall.
"Don't you ever in your lifetime call her out her name or that will be the day I kill you. Do you understand me?" He quickly nodded his head while trying to get her to loosen her grip. By this time, her eyes were full of black so no matter if he gave her an answer she wasn't going to let go. Knowing how to calm her I cautiously put my hand on her shoulder. Her head snapped at my hand as a warning to let her go. But I didn't really care she wasn't bold enough to put her hands on me and we both knew that. I walked closer to where her back was pressed against my front, I put one hand on her chest and the other on her hip. I whispered in her ear. Soon after her grip loosened, and a now blue Albee collapsed on the ground trying to get his breath back. Erica quickly turned to me before I could walk away. "Please Cynthia, I can't lose you again you my best friend and the mother to my children don't leave." Seeing how she was we told everyone to just leave, they walked out but not before saying goodbye and their apologies. That night we just laid down in our thoughts till we drifted off to sleep.
Two week later
I decided not to leave mainly because it wouldn't have felt right plus, I would have been back on the street. After a couple of days, a couple of E's and I friends thought it would be a clever idea to meet up and we decided to tell a little bit about why I left but not the full thing. But lately things between me and Erica have been a little weird. I can't help but think someone is coming between our friendship. But I paid it no mind a week ago I was asked to model and to be honest it boosted my confidence so as of now I do that and I'm a bartender. I continued getting ready for work told everybody bye and tucked the little ones in. As I was walking out, I couldn't help but notice Erica nose deep in her phone I wondered why it was bothering me so bad. When I got to work, it was slow, but I knew it would pick up soon.
1 am
I was sitting in the break room on my phone when I got a weird message from E, as she normally doesn't unless it's an emergency. So, I quickly opened it only for me to be shocked.
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No less than a minute later she quickly sent. Babymomma💖: OMG I'm sorry Cyn wrong person. I couldn't help but feel something bubbling up inside of me as much I didn't want to admit it, I couldn't help but feel jealous. I didn't know if it was because of the person the picture was meant for or the fact when I would get approached by someone, she quickly put an end to it.
