I peered out of my window, the snow on the streets have melted, revealing the ground. I shifted my eyes to the window opposite of me. It was closed. Some kind of disappointment rushed into me but I ignored it and sat up and got dressed.
"Morning, Clara," said mum as she gives me a glass of powdery water. "Are you ready to go to Doctor Sue today for a check up today?"
"Yes,"I reply as I finished drinking the glass of water.
Mum drove me to the doctor. Doctor Sue have been my doctor since I first found out about my disease. She tried everything to help me recover, after years and years of the medicine she gave me, I finally recovered. She was one of the doctors which I feel comfortable talking to so I don't mind if I told her about Jackson.
I knocked on her door.
"Come in," Doctor Sue said.
I opened the door and walked in, my mum waited for me outside. I looked at my mum and closed the door behind me. The room was a different room to the room I used to go to when I was still a sick child. This room had a blue wall and a collage of pictures drawn by small children were sticky taped onto it. I noticed that most of the pictures were drawn by me when I was young as I used to give Doctor Sue random 'gifts' of my ugly drawings.
I looked at Doctor Sue as she sat down comfortably on her chair. She was in her white coat with small metal name tag pinned onto it with the words 'Dr. Sue' printed on it. Her glasses fitted loosely on her face and her wrinkles appeared when she smiled at me. I was seated down on a chair next to my doctor and I began telling her about my situation.
"Hmm... I recommend you not to fall in love," she said after listening to my long speech about Jackson. "You've only just... recovered, I advise you not to date,"
I never knew it was an option whether or not to fall in love, I thought it occurred naturally and that you couldn't make yourself fall in love with someone. But it seemed like I was wrong.
"But... I'm not falling in love, I- I just feel strange in front of him, like my heart beats faster and all, I think its because I've stopped taking my medicine," I replied.
"You've stopped taking your medicine???" Doctor Sue exclaimed in disbelief, sitting at the edge of her chair.
"Yeah? I thought you told my mum to stop giving me medicine," I commented.
"Oh yes, I did..." she sat back on her chair and pushed her glasses up with her index finger. "I-I guess I'm getting old and forgetting things,"she said and she gave a weak smile.
"But anyways, you should stay away from boys now because they will cause trouble,"she continued.
"But... sometimes I want to know how its like to be like a normal girl," I said quietly.
"Clara, you are already a normal girl, you were always a normal girl,"Doctor Sue placed her hand on my hand and smiled.
"But... I want to have a boyfriend like the other girls," I continued.
"No, you don't, I think you are perfect without having to have a boyfriend and that you should go now, your mum have been waiting for quite a while," Doctor stood up and led me to the door and gave me a gentle push as I walked out.
Mum turned off her phone and stood up.
"How'd it go, what did she say?" she asked curiously.
"Nothing, I just want to go home," I replied and sprinted to the carpark.
Once we both got onto the car, mum drove me to school since it was a school day and I wanted to go to school.
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School went really fast today as I had missed the first three classes. It was soon home time and I had just enough time to find Jackson before he left the school.
"Hey," I said as I raced to catch up to him.
"Hi," he greeted."You were late to school today, I thought you said you're never late,"
"Yeah, but after last time, I've learnt from you, I learn things really quickly, you know," I said with a proud smile.
"Ahaha, you're such a rebel and I like it," Jackson replied.
We both laughed and walked home together. In some point during our walk we both remained silent. But it wasn't the awkward silence that we used to experience, it was another type of silence. The sort of silence that replaces a thousand words. It was because he reached to hold my hand. And I took it without hesitating. No awkward asking out was needed, no awkward stares, no awkward sentence were formed, no nothing. There was only silence.
I took a sneak peek at Jackson's face and saw that he was smiling uncontrollably, like me.
When we arrived at my house, I noticed my mum was in our front yard rummaging for something in the car. I immediately shook off Jackson's hand and he letted go. I assumed he understood that I didn't want my mum to know about what happened.
"Clara, who's this, your new friend?" Mum asked as she puts her hands on her hips.
"U-um, yeah he's my fr-" I was interrupted by Jackson.
"Yes, I'm her boyfriend,"he replied and I felt like I wanted to smash my head onto a wall. "Nice to meet you Mrs...?" he paused and glanced at me because he didn't know my last name.
"Chan," I whispered to him.
"Chan,"he repeated after me and smiled at my mum.
"Um, I think you should go now Jackson," I said as I pushed him away from my house.
"No, wait, let him come in, I haven't had any visitors in a long time, and plus, I want to know what my daughter's boyfriend would be like" she wondered as she opened the door.
"Ah, you have a nice mum, I wish my mum was like that," he said quietly to me and we walked in.
From this moment on, I'd wished that I had listened to Doctor Sue's advice. Then I would have avoided all this trouble.
END OF CHAPTER 5
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