Me and the Village boy

Chapter 12

I woke up the next day in bed I had no idea where I was at first or howi got there until my mother came in she said that Kit and I had aurgued and that he had stormed off, I had had aanick attack and then past out. Now I remember exactly what happened and it kills me inside. It kills me that Kit hates me that he doughts my love for him, it kills me that he doesn't want to marry me anymore.

1 week later

I still havn't left my room and I never will. I feel empty inside. I feel like a piece of me left with Kit. And something that I have never told anyone is that the other night I had a dream. I was in a room filled with my grandparents and my sister which is impossible because they are all dead and then in the dream I ralised I must me dead too.

And I didn't care I was happy because that way I didn't have to deal with the emptiness that I feel without Kit.

I love Kit I always have and I always will and I can't live without him.

" darling are you going to have something to eat today?" said my mum her head poking around the door.

" no Kit eats food so I can't I havn't got him so why should I eat?"

" because you need to at some point Eva please" her pleas didn't get through to me I know I have lost a lot of weight but I don't care. I don't care about anything anymore but i can't let him see that. Not anymore I'm going to get back to normal now forget him.

MY NOTE TO KIT

I wrote Kit a note and in gonna post it later. Here's what it says: Dear Kit,

I know you don't believe me but I really did, no do love you and I always have and always will. I am so sorry about how things turned out. So so sorry, and I did not mean any of The stuff you thought I meant. I love you So much I just don't love the idea of being queen and ending up hating you like my mother does my father.

You have my heart forever,

Eva

Xxx

I know its soppy but I had to let him know how I felt didn't I ?

THE NEXT DAY

I posted the note yesterday afternoon and this morning a letter came for me from Kit that read:

Dear Eva,

I took everything the wrong way didn't I, I'm sorry too and you have not done anything wrong.

Will you take me back? No of course you won't what am I thinking.well even if you won't have me back can you forgive me? I love you Eva.

You have all my love mow and forever,

Kit

Xxx

Well how's that for complicated anyhow I sent one back that pretty much said I forgive you but hurt me too much for me to have you back but I will always love you. And it was true as well.

Anyway I have been living my life normally for a week well as normal as it gets for a princess anyway. I eat sleep, paint, run and look after Ken ( the baby)

I'm happy well no I'm not I can't even. Think about Kit without crying my eyes out.