Hurt Again ( on hold)

Running | Chapter 2

My alarm woke me from my seemingly short slumber as my body sticks to my king size bed. I groan and get up and do my toiletries. The water washed away all the stress from yesterday. I washed my hair and I jumped out after 10 min. I put on a white crop top and black Nike trackie and my all black fluxes. I threw my Nike pouch over my shoulder and slicked my hair back tight and left it curly. I put in my hoops and my grill, tongue and septum piercing. I like my new style, it's refreshing. I put on some black lipstick and winged my eye liner, adding extra on the bottom lid. Grabbing my phone and headphones, I went downstairs. The smell off pancakes made my mouth water. I saw a plate laid out and I sat by it waiting.
" Eyy u look dope sis" Tion says entering the room and I give him dap.
" honestly, dress like a girl Ariyah!" My mum scolded and I closed my eyes trying. To shut her out.
" I think Ari looks dope" I heard my father speak up and I run to him and give him a hug.
" Thankyou daddy" I say and he hugs me tight. My parents are pretty young, mid thirties so they aren't cranky old parents that like to go by 'tradition'
" Marcus!" My mum scolded.
" well at least she isn't showing half her thing out of preppy clothes" he shoots back and mum leaves the room.
" ooo dad that was yo fault" Ti says and I laugh along with him.
" don't worry about her, dress how you want and express yourself" he said and I nodded.
Express myself....

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Tion gave me a ride today and I was so grateful, I was not about to trek and go on bus. 
Jumping out of my brothers car, I see my girls talking to the jaggz.
" what they talking to them fo'" Ti said
"They want us in" I said and he shook his head.
" they are trouble Ariyah, be careful " he says and I give him a hug and a kiss on the cheek. I walk away and towards my friends and the jaggz.
" Yoo, wassup" I say and they all turn around to me.
" damn  u look fly girll" Aundre said and the rest agreed.
I nodded my head smirked.
I saw Jessie staring at me with a cocky grin on his face. He came up to me when everyone else was in conversation.
" wassup lighty" he says and I grin and then shake my head.
He comes extremely close to me so I can smell his cologne. It's inviting and intoxicating at the same time. I'd be stupid to even think we could do s thing.
" you thought about joining our group" he asked playing with my curls ,reminding me of Cole yesterday... That boy needs to get out my head.
" uh yea sure" I say confidently and he smiles big and snakes his arm around my waist. He runs circles on my hips and I try and stop myself from closing my eyes.
He lifts my chin up so I can feel his minty breath on my cheek. He comes down to my ear and nibbles it, causing me to moan and he chuckles.
" you know you gunna be mine right?" He whispered and kissed my cheek.
What is he doing? What am I doing? He's just like the others, a player I can't be doing things with a boy who uses girls for pleasure only.
I pull away sharply and look down.
" stop telling me all these things Jessie, you just a player you don't want me and I don't wa-" I was cut short when I felt his soft lips press onto mine. He gripped my hips and wouldn't let go. I didn't respond and he groaned in my mouth. I gave up and kissed him back and he smirked. No, I don't want this... At least not yet.
I sushed him off slightly and looked up at him.
" Jessie, srry but ion' think I'm ready for a relationship yet after..."
He nodded his head, understanding what I was talking about. A few people knew about what happened with me and him, we were a public couple for months.
" yo it's Iytee b, u need more time I get it" he says and I smile weakly. He brings me into a hug and kisses my forehead. We walk back to the group but I feel as if I'm being stared down from the corner of my eye. I look to see who it is and Cole is looking quite angry. Why? He ran a hand through his dark brown hair and shook his head. What's his problem. I flipped him off and continued to walk back to my new Squaaaa'

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" Eyy you coming to party on Saturday, everyone is coming fam" Tyler said and Everyone started conversation.
We were currently sitting at the jaggz table and everyone was staring at us. It's kinda weird, they are the most popular guys in school.
I kept averting my attention to Cole that was sitting across the hall with the white squad talking to some girl with big boobs. I scoffed and looked away. He's just like the other boys. I looked up at him again and sure enough, the girl started to touch his chest flirting like hell with him. I instantly looked away, so fast I'm surprised i didn't get whiplash. A sick feeling was in the pit of my stomach.
" yo Ari you alright?" Keion said.
" Yee I'm straight" I say and shake my head. I can't be trippin over some white boy Kmt.
Next lesson I had ethics and a steady debate was going on. I wasn't feeling like arguing today my mind was elsewhere. I'm supposed to be the badass Girl in this school, I need to keep my rep up. I turned around in my seat and started speaking to daniel, the white boy in the jaggz.
" so wassup, who u talking to " I randomly say and he leans forward and grinned with his white teeth and rosy pink lips. I've heard that he's into coloured girls. Dayum.
" no one at the moment, Wbu caramel" he winks and I smile. I see the jaggz looking at me and Daniel especially Jessie. Shit. He doesn't really like me he was just playing.
A loud squeal was heard and I Kmt before looking where the sound came from. Cole had his hand around some brunette with green eyes. He looked very interested in the girl- fake bitch. I was gripping the table tightly and staring them down.
" Ariyah... Ari!" I broke out of the stare and looked at Daniel who looked confused.
" yes?"
" you look like your about to kill someone" he said amused and I smiled a bit.
" nah I'm cool" I turn around and face the front and stare into the interactive white board for the whole lesson.
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The end of the day finally came and I was walking with Jessie, and the boys and my home girlss'. We were talking bout going mc. Donald's and chill for a bit so I agreed. When we stepped out I remembered that I forgot to give in my assignment to Mrs.Daniels. I cursed under my breath.
" Eyy, I'll meet y'all there, I gotta do suttin" I shout and they nod they heads and turn back around. I started to walk towards the school and walked down the seemingly empty corridors. I made a sharp turn around  a piller and was knocked off my feet aggressively.
"Fuck, watch where your going bastard" I say getting off the ground.
" hello to you too Ari" I hear Coles voice and I freeze.
I look up to see an emotionless face, looking at me blankly.
" look where your going white boy" I say sharply and he grabs my wrists and my bag and assignment drops the the floor.
" I'm sick and tired of you saying that! God your so annoying!" He says snarling in my face.
" boy move out my way" I try to leave his grasp, but he's holding on too tight so I give up.
" Ariyah, why do you hate me so much" he says and he looks genuinely upset.
" I don't hate you" I say and he rests one hand on top of my head, seeing as my 5'1 is tiny compared to his 5'11 height.
" Jessie ain't good for you" he says and looks away.
What? He has no right to tell me what is good or not good for me.
"You have no right to say that Cole, what do you care Anyways? You sure didn't when you were flirting with Barbie in class! " I snap and he lowers his head so it is touching mine. My heart is racing and the breath inside me seems to have been sucked out. What is he doing to me?
" I thought it would got you pissed, I don't like them" he says and I roll my eyes. So he was trying to get me jealous. He's gunna have to do better than that.
" yeah well you wasted your time cuz I don't give two fucks what you do with your hoes so be my guest" I say and screw him.
He moves his head closer to mine not saying anything.
"Ari..." He whispers playing with my hair. In this moment every problem seems to vanish into thin air. It's just us two.
" Cole..." I breath out, our bodies are so close, I can feel his breath on my lips. I open my mouth to speak when he closes his eyes and-
"Cough!" We jump apart and Mrs. Daniels is looking amused and disturbed.
" uh miss! I've got your assignment" I say and grab it off the floor and hand it to her with a weak smile.
" hmmm, I'll mark it tonight, get home, both of you." she raises her eyebrows and I can see Cole rubbing the back of his neck. I pick up my bag and start to walk away from Cole.
" Ariyah wait! You can't deny that you don't feel something for me" he says catching up. I don't have feelings anymore, not after him.
We reached the car park and he was hot on my heels.

" no I don't have feelings Cole, I'm sorry you don't want some troubled bad ass girl causing your trouble. Plus I've only known you for 48 hours." He spins me around and holds me tight around my waist and without warning captures my lips in his. I don't respond to him even though I want to...
His lips taste of mint and strawberries, he groaned in frustration when I didn't kiss back. He pulled away looking hurt and confused. I looked up at him and then his lips. Not knowing what I was doing I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. It took him a while to realise what was going on, but he soon kept up and moaned in my mouth. His hands traveled down to my butt and he squeezed it gently. I moaned into his mouth and he smirked. I ran my hands through his hair, then it was his turn to moan. He moved us backward and my back hit the car behind me.
Realisation hit me hard when I thought about people finding out about me doing things with a white boy. The jaggz and everyone else would look at me wierd. I don't want my life any harder than it already is and I don't have time for my heart to go through all of that again.
I pushed him off suddenly startling him and I shook my head and wiped my lips.
" we can't do this" I start and look down.
" what? Why not" he says running a hand though his hair.
" because my rep... I will get shit if I was seen with you, I don't need anymore drama in my life and honestly... I don't want to go though heartbreak again" well that isn't exactly true but I have to make up some excuse.
He just looks at me and shakes his head.
" your rep! So your rep is more important than your feelings! " he says
" yo, I don't need this" I say
" so your just gunna ignore the feelings you have then? Ignore me!" He shouts and I wince.
" yes... I'm sorry, I really am"
My chest tightens and I begin to walk away. I can feel the tears begging to come out but I won't let them fall. I'm too strong for that.
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A/n ; bit muad still!! 😂😂❤️