'Till Death We Will Fight

Chapter XIII

"We should tell the others about your...condition..."

"I'll tell Zena but until we can find a way to fix this I don't want anyone else to know." I know that he's right, the people that are risking their lives for this cause should know about this... "I would like you to talk with Mam again and see how I can fix this."

He nods and I take a deep breath as I feel myself being pulled into that room again, "Well, I'm getting to talk a lot today." She smiles but it quickly turns to a frown, "She should really relax."

"She is kind of freaking out about this whole thing....She wants to know how to fix this..." I watch as Mam cocks her...my...our head to the side in confusion, "Like..." I notice that as he's looking for the right words he rubs the scar on his right arm, that is a perfect match to my own.

'How do I merge Mam, Viv, Mal, Val, and myself into one?'

Mam's face lights up, "It's the exact same as merging Lastrance and Julius, it will be slightly harder though."

Julius frowns, "What all will she have to do?"

"Well, she will have to speak with all of us in her own mind, accept what and who she is, she will have to pull us together. After she does all of this she will be able to tap into the entirety of her strength and wisdom, we will never really leave she will in a sense become schizophrenic."

They continue to speak about this but I tune out and stare at the door to the rest of my mind, should I go? I have my hand on the nob and I am now opening the door before I can tell myself not to. I'm left in awe as I stand there looking at what could only be described as an extravagant castle. I start walking and I find that I know exactly where to go to find what Mam was talking about. I went to what kind of looks like a maze but I was able to navigate it with ease, I walked to one spot and searched through the documents there to find information on split personalities and schizophrenia, I also found information on how to fix the split personalities if they have been created by the person...this is going to be fun. Mam wasn't lying, it will be like merging two souls.

"It will be like merging two souls because we are auras not just personalities."

I jump when I hear a saddened voice behind me I turn to look to find two sad looking females, "You must be Mal and Val."

They nod, "Mam has been reading all about how you can get rid of us...."

"When we asked she said you don't want us around anymore..." I'm assuming Mal is the one that started sobbing at this point.

"That's not why I want to merge us....I won't be getting rid of you....I'll just be...bringing you closer, if what Mam and the books say is true I'll still be able to hear you and you all will still be here, you will just not take completely over....I'll be there when your emotions come out...."

"But you don't want us..."

"That's not it at all." I feel so bad seeing her crying because I want to merge us but I feel weird talking to myself. "We will be stronger if I merge us together and I'll come here and talk to you all the time...also, if I merge us you can talk to me when I'm not here."

"Do you promise not to get rid of us?" Then is when I notice Viv, she has her arms crossed and she looks pissed, I guess that fits her. I look to Mal and Val, who have pleading looks on their faces.

I know I can't do that to them..., "I promise I will not get rid of you but you cannot fight me when I come to merge us." Mal and Val give me sad smiles and a hug before nodding their agreement. "I have to go now but I will be back." I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I push past Mam. I feel slow like I'm wading through mud, my lungs are burning like I've been holding my breath too long. Soon the pain subsides and I'm able to move without a problem.