CRY OF THE CASANOVA [Ms.Fearless VS Mr. Casanova, #1]

[11] - It's Just the Beginning

CHAPTER 11

It's Just the Beginning

Until now, I can't forget what Kristel told me.

Look, try dating again, ok? Just stop generalizing that all boys are the same. 

Pero hindi ko mapigilan. Hindi madaling kalimutan ang nangyari sa past! Natatakot pa din ako. Ayoko ng maulit pa ang dati. 

After I caught Michael cheating on me, na-trauma na ako. Imagine, seeing your lover having sex with another woman? F*ck! Hindi na sya nakuntento sa akin. I mean hindi ako nagkulang sa kanya! but maybe, ako lang ang nagsasabi nun. Maybe for him, sobrang laki ng pagkukulang ko dahil hindi ko maibigay sa kanya ang gusto nya.

Yeah. That one thing he can't find and get from me, hinanap nya sa ibang babae. And it f*cking hurts my pride! But I don't need to feel sorry for myself. Because at some point, I think I made the right decision to leave him. 

To leave him with embarrassment after he cheated on me. 

Michael and I were in relationship for 5 years. And in that 5 years, I won't deny that he cheated on me. The first time he cheated on me, I forgave him since he was asking for another chance. I did, gave him that. But then inulit na naman nya. So, I embarrassed him in the public. 

Which caused the slow downfall of his career. I-published ba naman sa newspaper and media na "Action star and model Michael Paredes caught CHEATING by his non-showbiz girlfriend." 

Of course I did not indicate my name there. Mahirap na diba. Isa ring kahihiyan yun sa pangalan namin. Kaya nga binayaran ko ng malaking pera ang mga taong behind the issue para hindi magsalita. Ang totoo nyan, everyone knows that Michael has a girlfriend 'anonymously'. Meaning walang nakakakilala kung sino dahil hindi naman namin pinabulgar ang relasyon naming dalawa sa public. Plus, ikakababa rin ng popularity nya yun kapag nalaman na meron sya.

After mabulgar yun, never humarap si Michael sa public at press. Instead ang manager na lang nya ang sumagot sa issue. Pinalabas na lang nila na isang hater lang ang nagpalabas nun. At gumagawa ng kwento na nabuking ng girlfriend.

Ito pa nga ang masaklap na paliwanag nila eh. Yung kasama mismo ni Michael daw ay tunay na girlfriend. So, bakit daw 'caught' by his girlfriend, eh syota nya nga ang kasama sa picture. For short, it was just a picture of the couple na kumalat at ginawan ng kwento. Huh! The nerve of him! Pero masaya ako dahil napahiya pa din sya wether it was real or not.

Right now, hindi ko alam kung nasaan ang hayop kong ex. Ang huli kong balita ay pumunta daw ng Barcelona ang gago at nagbakasyon kasama ang girlfriend nya. That assh*le! May gana pa syang dalhin ang babae nya sa lugar na kung saan una kaming bumisita. 

Argh. I better take a shower now.
Nang mabawasan naman ang init ng ulo ko.

*At the G-corporation*