UN REQUITED (boyxboy)

Fifteen

Since the date weeks ago, Conner has upped his game and my fingers have managed to memorize every part of his body.  We have yet to take the final step in our relationship and I am hoping that this time away on this island will help remedy that.

These are the thoughts running through my head as I stare out the window of this magnificent plane not focusing on anything in particular.  I am very nervous at the thought of becoming completely intimate with Conner and I know he wants to take that step as well but he is holding back.

I cannot help but think that because of my near death experience, he plays it safe around me.  I don't want him being this way around me.  I just want Conner, the one I fell madly in love with.  The one that I know beyond any doubt returns my feelings.

I am brought out of my thoughts when I hear the guys loud chatter.  A couple of our friends will be joining us.  Since I have been crowned the King of all Nerds, my second in command would be Albert.  He was the mastermind behind the downfall of Conner's ex-girlfriend.

Once I returned to school, he did not hesitate to insinuate himself into my life and to me he is like a breath of fresh air.  If not for Conner, I would consider him my best friend.  He is such a super nerd with his thick coke bottle glasses and slicked down black hair.  He also wears clothing two sizes too big for him.

I will say this, one time he was over my house and we were enjoying the pool and he let his defenses down and let me tell you something.  Whether guy or girl, if people saw what I saw on that day he would not want for any suitors.  He is beautiful.  All pale flawless skin with muscles everywhere and even though he is small like me, he is perfectly proportioned except for one not so small detail.

Imagine my surprise when he comes out of my pool all slick and wet water sliding off his perfect body.  He had no clue I was staring at him since he had his glasses off and for the first time I noticed that he has such a pale set of silver eyes that when they shimmer you could almost think of them as silver.

The log, however, was a complete shock to me and whoever he winds up with is going to be very pleased.  With as much time as Albert and I spend together now, Conner was never jealous.  If anything, he was pleased with the fact that I now have an established set of my own friends.

To my complete shock and joy was Conner's football buddies Garreth his left guard and Ryker his right guard.  They have now become my protectors from anyone who would even be stupid enough to blink at me the wrong way.  Honestly I think people are more scared of Albert and what he is capable of than these two.

I don't know if Conner sees it let alone Albert but I am pretty sure that Garreth is smitten with my friend.  I think they would compliment each other well.  Garreth is huge at 6'5" and at newly eighteen I am pretty sure he is not done growing.  He is also pure muscle.  Not an ounce of fat on him.  He is a solid wall as most of the players on the field find out when he plows them into the ground.

When Conner started pee-wee football, that is how Garreth came into our lives and he has been around the longest of all the people we know.  He has always been kind to me regardless of how other people treated me but now, he is an impenetrable wall if you come near me with anything other than friendship.

The way his black eyes follow Albert around, I am shocked my brainiac of a friend has not picked on it.  It's cool too that Garreth has the whitest blond hair I have ever seen.  If most of his family did not share in this trait I would have sworn he dyed it.

Now Ryker, he is a scary man child but so hysterical.  He is the comic relief needed when things get tense.  He is another giant at 6'4" and another wall of pure solid muscle.  He is golden skinned with the bluest eyes on such a formidable looking man and brown hair.

He and I never really hit it off but eventually after what happened, he crashed into my life with a speech about how all life is precious and what I did was most selfish and that he was going to be watching me.  I looked at him like he was nuts but after not being able to shake him out of my life, I have grown used to him and even look forward to his company but don't tell him that.

 I feel his fingertips slowly crawl down my right forearm as Conner eventually tangles his fingers with my own.  Then he lifts our melded hands towards his face as he turns my arm slightly  so he can then rub his nose lightly over my scar before kissing it very tenderly.  This causes every nerve in my body to respond in the most erotic of ways and I have to catch my breath.

He is the only one that can make me feel this.  I love him so much more now that when I look into his eyes I see that love returned to me.  Each day my soul heals with the warmth of that gaze upon me.  Each day I find myself getting stronger, braver and hopefully soon I will find the courage to voice just what I want from Conner without the fear of losing him.  A fear that always lurks in the back of my mind.

I look over at my man and he gives me this shit eating mischievous grin as he says, "Excited to be going away with me?"  I can barely move my lips to respond as he continues to rub his lips from my scar up to the palm of my hand holding it open with his fingers.  His lips have me entranced as I hum my response to him.

He chuckles a bit but does not let me go.  He never lets me go.  He loves holding me and caressing me as much as he can get away with especially in public.  He leans towards me in what I was hoping would be an attempt to kiss my lips but we both jump when we hear the pilot alert us that we are approaching our destination and to get ourselves up righted and seat belted up.

He looks over at me while still holding my hand and says, "Here we go my beautiful baby!"  Then I blush from my scalp all the way to my tippy toes and think, indeed, here we go!