The Sweetest Sounds

Kapitel acht

                  

It's weird...  I've been in Berlin for three months yet I feel more alone than ever. Maya and Cord have moved in together in their own apartment a little bit away, so I don't regularly see them as often. Everyone in the orchestra still gives me the odd stare like they did since the beginning.

And Luka... It has been two weeks since our little "hang out" and since then he has acted like nothing has ever happened between us. He has completely shut me out and only me. Every once in a while, during practice, he will have short conversations to others. Yet, every time I tried to talk to him, he keeps walking or doesn't even look at me and quickly says "Sorry, can't talk right now."

After the three hour morning rehearsal, we all get the rest of the day off to ourselves. Usually, I just walk back to my apartment and practice more or read a new book.

But today seemed different... The weather wasn't as cold and it looked brighter. I looked behind me, back at the music hall, and spotted Luka leaning against the wall (in his usual stance) and was staring right at me. As soon as he caught my glance, he turned away and walked off in the other direction.

......

I walked a few blocks into town and just took in my surroundings. I had my violin case in hand as I weaved in between bystanders.

It was a hotter day than usual... As I paced past everyone, my sweater was starting to feel itchy. I shrugged it off my shoulders, leaving me only in m black tank top. I have been walking for about an hour now, just watching the buildings as I passed. My legs now have the burning sensation like when I ran track in middle school. I sat my violin and music binder on a bench beside me and stretched myself on it beside them.

It was getting late in the afternoon now and I noticed that not as many people were out anymore. They probably all went home to enjoy dinner with their families.

I miss my family

I thought moving here would give me a nice fresh start, but I have never felt more alone. The longer I am here the more I feel like this was a bad idea.

I laid down onto the bench completely and watched the sky. It was a beautiful sight. Mixed with various shades of purple and orange.

I don't remember how long I watched the sunset because my eyes soon fell shut

....

"Wake up." I was shoved almost completely off the bench. My vision was crusted with sleep. I rubbed my eyes for a second and tried to look at the jerk who shoved me.

After a few seconds, I saw the signature blonde hair and perfect blue eyes.

"Are you stupid? You don't just fall asleep on a bench in the north part of town!" I was beyond confused. Why was he so mad?

"I'm sorry. I was tired and I was watching the sky an..."

"I don't care. This is not the best side of town. You need to head back to your apartment now. When it's dark, there is no telling what all happens out here."

"Fine. I'll leave then." I stood up slowly and grabbed my things and headed in the other direction. I didn't look back to see if he was following me because I was so tired and ready to just lay on my bed.

...

It was almost completely dark out here. I'm not really sure where I am since not all the street lights were on and I could only see a few feet in front of me. I tried looking up to see the street names but I only saw a few muddled words. Why did I have to explore today? Maybe Luka was right all along... I'm stupid and I don't belong here.