don't you see that I'm finally at my breaking point I want out I want free or don't you care. I sit and wait for hours for one response that ill never get. and that is fine now, but don't be surprised if you get ignored or even pushed away. when I need people I'm scared to reach out I'm scared to be left in the dark again.no lights little to no sound, the fear is taking over, are you going to leave or stay arte you going to fight or not, will you help me or just watch. I just want that phone call and hear your voice and I want your warm hugs but your to busy worrying about things of the past when I'm fighting to stay moving forward and I cant take much more of this. I'm going crazy in thought that you don't even care or is this my mind finally over working and wanting to die? I don't know I really don't. most people are scared of death but me I'm not and I don't care its going to happen one way or another. I fight and fight till I cant anymore. and all you do is sit there and tell me to get over it. but how can you get over something that you basically relive everyday because you mind cant forget the past or forget this problem. its not that easy. you tell me to ignore them to move its the past or you sit there and you actually call me and make sure I'm fine but its never the same. I write but you will never understand the pain I deal with when I write how I truly feel you just say move on or youll be caring and ask for a change.
don't you see I'm the girl people talk about
don't you see I'm the girl that is broken and lost
don't you see I'm the girl that has been lied to everyday of her life
don't you see I'm the girl everyone will forget
don't you see I was suppose to be gone
and all you can say is I'm sorry or we can get through this. Can we? I'm not sure you know how I feel or what I see or what has happen to me. the sweet little girl everyone known to be true has been taken way, has been abused and lied to.
anxiety and panic
they just take over and I set my self up for this everyday and I cant stop it. why does this happen to me? why do I feel so helpless ? words affect how I feel and think. sometimes I'm perfectly fine and other day I'm completely insane I wanna cry and scream and break free. will this ever happen? HAHA probably when I finally can break free. I just want to be set free.
I'm the girl that everyone forgets sooner or later I'm just one girl that everyone grows to hate. and don't say that's a lie because its true.
these words finally come to mind and I just cant spill them I just cant I just wanna cry. you have lied to me and it finally made sense and I cant let it go. I'm everyones nightmare dressed as a complete datdream but no one listens to me. I'm crazy. I get compaired to Harley Quinn and these
