To the one who broke my heart before anyone else, to the guy I trusted first. Whatever did happen to beyond forever the happy ever after or even infinity and beyond the stars. I will never know. The late night conversation and texting Skyping till I'm suddenly a sleep or even the nights of walking the streets looking at the stars. It was never me that gave up. You walked away. And for me that was perfect timing. The endless fighting the names calling but promise you would never do it again. The hiding of bruises you have left watching me cry but you never cared now did you? You told everyone what I said you lied to my face, but at the of the day you knew I would come back. I would drink behind our backs for months on end. You really didnt notice til one after I left early and I left my water bottle behind. I went home sick but it was really because I was drunk. I cried over you for a reason but you would blackmail me. Spilling every secret of little detail about me. But little did you know what I was hiding behind a smile or the simple fact laugh. This goes to you. This goes to the guy the broke me and hurt me worse than someone could ever do. This goes to you for watching me brake down and comfort me till I was strong so you could do it again. Why did I stay? But I didn't see it Till someone told me what was going on. Toxic was the word they used and they were right. That works and it fitted you just right. So this is all I had to say. The the guy that fucked me over broke my heart lied to my face and caused me pain, thank you for showing me the difference between a boy and a man. And I hope someone will hurt as bad as you hurt me. Because now I'm free and I don't have worry about you.
-the ex girlfriend.
