I've been told that I was made to deal with this because I'm strong enough to deal with it. That's why this so called 'god' made my mom the way she is and made me her child because I'm strong enough to deal with a schizophrenic parent. Not to mention I'm the only child and a dad is not in the picture. Also a guy she is seeing doesn't understand. Well guess what 'god' you fucked up. I'm not strong enough to deal with it. So I will plead you to take my life from me now. If not I will take it myself. She is so far from being normal. How could there possibly be a god who 'loves' is when he has done something like this?
