I try asking for help, for my confusion.
Why am I still holding on?
I know I fucked up and hurt you.
It seems like you believe that's a lie.
I thought I only missed you because I missed the feeling of being wanted.. But that's not true. I didn't know what being treated right was like. So it scared me. Losing you could have been for the best, I know you're gone. So the hell with you.
Why can't I just convince myself to move on already? I guess it's not that easy when one of your bestfriends likes you and you like him but you don't want to fuck up the friendship and the other you just don't know if you're ready to trust someone all over again.
Or maybe you're just scared of fucking every single thing up.. again.
