Why The Fuck Did I Fell In Love

So.... Uncomfortable

January eleven

I called joe to come over tonight and he did.we did not have a place to go this time.my brother was not in the mood to be nice.he said "NO "Cole to me.How rude?
I saw a car parked on the side of my house and we entered it like we owned it. luckily no one saw us in it.I sat in the car waiting on Joe to talk to me and make a move but, unfortunately he didn't.

"So how was ya day"?.I questioned breaking the silence.

"Good".he said without asking me the same question I ask him.I guess he didn't want to know how my day went.

"I missed you"I said looking up at him smiling hoping that he would smile back sadly he didn't.

"Its only been a day or two and you saying you missed me"he said looking confused.the gaps between my eyebrows frowned.

"What do you mean by that"?I said in wonder.

He didn't say anything er that and i tried get closer to him.he sat there watching my every move.is he not into me anymore?but we just started?
Stop it stop thinking like that.of course he's into you.just give it a try.ok stupid inner voice I will, but if I fail I will kill you.ok what the hell did i just said.kill my inner voice how, is that even possible.ok, I'm loosing. I think I'm going nuts.I shook of the thoughts and moved closer to Joe.

Unbelievable!did he just turned to face me, and kissed me back.I wanted him to kiss me all over and touch my body.I was craving for him to make love to me, not just gone straight to sex without turning me on or nothing.the moment we started kissing,I felt his hands inside my panties.next thing I know his dick was fighting its way inside of me.I wasn't wet enough gor him to just punch it in there .it happened to sudden.fuck that shit hurts.what the hell was I doing on top of him.he hold my waist and moved me up and down with his hands I got used to it and he let me do the work my self.the car was so small it was bouncing as i dance on that dick with pain.I could no longer mived.my leg was in cramps and my swears was enough to cook a hole bag of rice.my I couldn't feeel my own toes.they were numb.
"You're getting better, keep going"Joe have been saying for the pasty thirst minutes.I was so tired I was ready to let him take over but there were no space to move.the most unforgettable thing was that he said he wasn't doing anywork tonight.like wtf.I was tired and ready to go inside.we didn't do no talking tonight just uncomfortable sex.Fuck that.please Lord,forgive me.he kissed me good night and he said bye.I wanted him to stay longer but I didn't tell him anything.I was afraid that things would get worst if I had said anything so I kept quiet.why was he being so strange?was he tired of me already.was he cheating on me?