A Different Kind Of Love

02

Aaliyah's POV

He slowly removed my close, leaving me only in my underwear then pinned me down before I got the chance to move.

"Let me show you how much I love you." He whispered

I moaned as he began kissing all over my body. August and I haven't been this intimate in a long time. I am sure he has though.

He parted my legs slowly, kissing my inner thighs before removing my black lace.

He kissed me soft and slow, our lips moulding perfectly together. He broke the kiss to remove his clothes. I stare at his beautiful body seeing newly done tattoos but one stood out more than the others. He had my initials and the date when we became official. I smiled sadly up at him but he shrugged pushing my back down reconnecting our lips.

He removed his lips once again but only to connect it with my left breast, letting out a loose moan as he sucked lightly while tweaking the other with his fingers.

He kissed down my stomach making his way to my jewel. He did his job before replacing his tongue with his fingers( lol I didn't know how to write that part 🙈😂). A small gasp left my lips as he entered me, to keep me relaxed he kiss my collar bones softly.

"A- ha... fuck" I hissed as he inched in me more.

"You okay, baby?"

"Yes." I mumbled

He thrust into me slowly and I gripped the sheets as the pain increased.

"I love you so much." He pants rolling his hips

I admired all his tattoos but the one of my name on his neck made my heart flutter. He removed my hands from the sheets bringing them above my head.

He was slow and the only time his lips left mine was to say "I love you" , my legs wrapped around him the whole time.

Two hours later, trembling legs, and low pants filled the room as I felt his warm juice inside me or the second time.

"I love you.. god I love you so fucking much."

He stared at me, his eye never leaving mine. He was looking for any doubt. He sighs pressing his lips to mine. I felt him hardened and he grinds slowly into me.

My body tense as he hits the same spot over and over, I knew August could probably keep going but I was minutes away from passing out. My legs tightened around his waist and my fingernails dig into his already scarred back as I ride out my orgasm.

His panted heavily, his hot and slightly sweaty body hovered over me as he kissed me passionately. He pulled out, then cleaned up the mess we made then laid down wrapping his arms around me tightly.

I laid my head on his chest quietly listening to his heartbeat. He slept peacefully but I couldn't get my eyes to close.

I hate the fact that doing this with him made me love him even more, it also made me remember how good he was in bed.

I'd forgotten how good he could make me feel. Maybe sleeping with him wasn't such a good idea because now I don't want to leave him. When we first met, he wasn't anything like this, but even though he was a pain the ass he somehow got me to fall in love with him.

I am going to miss him so much but I have many other priorities. I'm finishing school in a month and I already gotten a job offer in New York. I want to know what it feels like to date other people and enjoy life a little before I commit to August fully or someone else.

I'm not doing this to hurt him but August have other issues of his own that he needs to work on. Issues that he needs to work on, on his own.

I grabbed my phone from the side table and saw it was 5:30 a.m. I sighed looking up at his peaceful frame. I trace over his chiseled features then pressing a soft kiss on his adam's apple before untangling myself from his body getting out the bed. I carefully pulled the duvet back over his body then sighing thankfully when he didn't wake up.

I had to leave now because I don't think I'll be able to handle watching him break down again. I know if I see him so broken again, I'll stay.... and I don't want that. I want to go out and enjoy life a bit. I feel trapped with August. He knows I love him but he acts out on the littlest things. He needs to fix things with his mom and the rest of his family. We're both a work in progress but we can't fix each other. There's too many broken parts and not enough bandages.

I walked into the bathroom turning on the faucet. I splashed warm water on my face then took a new toothbrush from the cabinet since I already packed my things. I dried my face and looked in the mirror to see hickeys spread across my neck and chest.

Ever since what happened between August and I a little part of me never wanted to be with him again but then I thought everybody make mistakes, not as big as August but people still make mistakes. Ask me a couple months ago and there would be no doubt in my mind that I didn't want to just be with him. Now, I don't even know what to feel. I know I love him, but I'm not in love with him anymore. I want to stay with him but I know that won't solve anything.

For you

I'd do anything for youNail my heart to the ceilingI'd put my fist through a wallHow come (how come)I stick around when I break down (break down, break down)I take the blows like a champion (champion, champion)

But I get nothing at all

Reasons for my hope, all make me a big joke I already know You were just fine, I was just fine Why did we turn a good time to a dark one?I'd give you a chance but the better man never called

Oh, oh
For you (for you)
I'd do anything for you (for you, for you)
Nail my heart to the ceiling (ceiling, ceiling)
I'd put my fist through a wall
How come (how come)
I stick around when I break down (break down, break down)
I take the blows like a champion (champion, champion)
But I get nothing at all
But I get nothing at all
But I get nothing at all

I snapped out of my thoughts and I found myself fully dressed in a pair of gray sweats, an oversized t-shirt and a pair of black UGGs.

"Liyah." I hear a raspy voice. I didn't answer, hoping he would just go back to bed.

"Where are you going?"

"I...I"

"Are you leaving me?" He frowned

"Go back to bed August." I plead

"Are you leaving me?" He asked again but this time he seemed angry

"I told you I was going to leave." I whispered

"But, we just made love."

"I'm not in love with you anymore." I admitted

"Yes you are." He mumbled

"I.Don't.Love.You." I said slowly making direct eye contact with him

"Aaliyah, I love you." He says leaning to hug me but I moved away.

"I don't care if you don't love me... we can work towards that." He says grabbing my waist making me look at him.

"Please come back to bed." He begs and I gave in and nodded.

I drop my bags and we made our way back to the bedroom.

I stayed with him until it was 6:30 before I got out of the bed and left as quietly and quickly as could.

When I got to the door I saw his mother standing there with a cup of tea in her hands.

"I won't stop you honey, just take care of yourself and promise me you'll come back to him someday." She smiles sadly. I nodded and she pulled me in a hug giving me a quick kiss on the cheek before I left.

I stayed outside the door for a couple minutes before walking to the elevator. When I got outside, I heard calls of my name and I knew it was August. I hide around the corner of the building listening to him ask the doorman if he saw me. He was crying and I felt tears pooled in my eyes. After ten minutes he stopped and I figured Theresa came and got him.

I hate than I am hurting him so much but I have to do this for me.

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