Merlin's Love Triangle (BoyXBoy)

Chapter nine: I wanted Arthur and I always would.

Chapter nine:  I wanted Arthur and I always would.

 I felt pain but not because of the fact that I had been beaten up. I couldn’t care less about that it was my heart that was causing me pain.

It was the pain of not knowing if I’ll ever be able to decide between Arthur and Gwaine.

The pain I was feeling was about how I was worried about if they both hate me or the fact that they might break up with me and I just couldn’t take it.

I felt tears drip down my face as I sat up against the cold wall in a dark smelly and desolate room on my own.

I missed Gwaine and Arthur. I wanted them beside me but that was Morgana’s plan to take them away from me and destroy me in the most horrible and tortures way possible.

I was not going to let her win. Morgana was not going to destroy me so easily not when I can still stand, still think and come up with a plan somehow.

Being alone in this room had given me time to think. I knew I had to decide who I wanted to be with and in a way I had always known who I wanted to be with.

I had known him for years. I had been with him so many times and because he loved me back I wanted him. I needed him and as much as I denied that I couldn’t any longer.

I loved Gwaine that was clear. He meant a lot to me and when I thought I had no luck with Arthur I latched my heart onto Gwaine’s too.

This was my entire fault. My heart had fell in love with two men but it was beginning to decide and I had this feeling it would always be Arthur.

I felt bad and I wanted to hit my head up against the wall because I knew I was going to break Gwaine’s heart or if I choice Gwaine’s it would break Arthur’s.

My destiny was with Arthur so I couldn’t even run away with Gwaine if I wanted to or less I wanted to destroy the future of Camelot. I couldn’t do that.

If I was with Arthur it would be hard but as much as it would seem impossible I hardly cared. I took in a deep breath trying to calm down a little.

I needed to think of a plan first or I would never be able to decide anyway. Oh why did I cause myself so many problems?

It was my fault this was so complicated and I knew I had to fix this. However first I needed to get all three of us out of here away from Morgana where we would be safe.

I struggled to my feet ignoring the pain my body was in. I was aching all over, I felt dizzy and tired but I put all that aside as I headed towards the door to the cell.

I did not care what Morgana said I did not believe a word she said. I took my chance when I could and I ripped the necklace of my neck chucking it to the floor.

My magic came back quickly and I felt it flowing within me. I closed my eyes trying to ignore how sick I felt before I said a spell which made the door click open.

I stepped out into the corridor knowing this was the last thing I should be doing when I felt like this but I hardly cared.

I just cared to get Arthur and Gwaine out of here alive and then I worry about myself later. I headed down the corridor quickly looking out for anyone encase I needed to use my magic quickly.

I found a new door and I opened it up a little to look inside to find two men at a table but behind them was a cell and inside was Arthur who looked quite tired and annoyed but other than that unharmed which I was grateful for.

I tried to remember my spells but I could hardly think as my head was aching. I needed a spell to knock them out and if I could just remember it.

It finally came to me so I stepped into the room and before the two men could do anything I said the spell quietly and they both collapsed to the floor sleeping.