Betray.
Love. I love him. There is no "us" but I love him. You used to tease us. You used to be happy of the hope that we can be together someday. The man that I always loved. Then it happened, my wing woman became the one. The one who betrayed me. I know he fell deeply in love with her. I know she did not do anything wrong. I know that I have no reason whatsoever to be angry. Betrayal is an exaggerated word for what you did. But thats how I felt. Everybody felt that after 7 years its already time to move on. Believe me. I felt the same way too. But my heart, my body and my mind tells me otherwise. I love him. If true love does exist. Eto na siguro yung akin. Pero alam ko wala ka namang ginawang masama kaya nga hindi ko pwedeng ipakita sa iba na nasasaktan ako. My bestfriend is the only one who knows what I feel. It was our graduation ball and we are to celebrate. We are graduating. But I was crying for the whole night. Imagine. The whole night.
Then fastforward to college. We lived in the same boarding house. I hear you talking to him. Everyday. I told you I moved on. But that was never the truth. And youre the same insensitive friend (or not) that I always know. Youre hurting me and you dont even have an idea that you do. Or sadyang sinasadya mo. For all I know. I am trying to move on. Pero gumagawa ka ng paraan para magkausap kami. Para marinig ko yung boses niya. Para maramdaman ko na sa iyo siya tumatawag at hindi sa akin.
It hurts. It hurts like hell. But. Sino ako para magalit? Thats why I swallowed all my pride and I gave you the right to hurt me. You did not finished your college. I graduated. Became a professional. 4 years have passed and you still trying to use him to have my attention. Respeto naman no. Everybody has moved on already. Its time. Don't you think.
BINABASA MO ANG
My Sentiments Exactly
RandomI don't know what happened to me to write this kind of letter. Hahaha. The most random of all the random feelings I ever had the opportunity to feel.
