My Sentiments Exactly

Me. Alone.

Now playing: The Scientist by Coldplay
Alone
What is really the definition of alone?
I don't want to post anything about being alone on valentines day because I don't want to look like I am the only one who do not have a date on Valentines day, thus, this.
Am I alone? Yes.
Am I happy? Probably.
Why probably? Because all of my friends with boyfriend/girlfriend always told me that I should be happy with my single life.

But at the back of my head. I really love to receive roses, letters and kisses and hugs.
I like being alone.
I go to malls alone.
Go to cinema alone.
Go to church alone.
Go on a trip alone.
Thats me.
I like reflecting on my life while hanging out at my favorite coffee shop, or eating in my favorite restaurant, with my earphones on, I can care less about my surroundings.

But when I see friends laughing, a mother nursing her baby, a father carrying his child on his shoulder, classmates cramming about school stuff in a coffee shop, brothers and sisters, couples holding hands.
I would just release deep sighs.
Wondering what I will feel if I am them.
If I can go back to when I am cramming alone. What if I spent those times with my peers.
What if I had a baby, how happy would I feel if I saw my husband carrying our child on his shoulder.
What if I spent this moment with my family.
What if I have someone to hold hands with.
I realized that I like being alone but at the end of the day I don't fancy being alone.

Then again, earphones on, volume up, shrug shoulders and carry on.