I was possessed by him, but I chose to love him Crowley X reader

chapter16

"I accept your apology, please forgive me for anything I've done to you."

"I can't forget, but I'll forgive." I smiled loosely looking up tears falling slowly. "Do you want me to bandage the wounds?" I asked.

"Sure." He said quietly.

We both went upstairs, I sat him down in a chair in the kitchen running to get bandages. I found them then ran back. "I found-." I looked up there was no Jerome anymore but, there was a furious looking Crowley. "Oh, umm. Hi." I said awkwardly.

"Don't you 'hi' me. What the hell was that? Telling the king of hell what to do?" He strided forward. "I am above you, I don't take orders-."

"If you don't take orders then why'd you leave?"

"Because if I hadn't I don't think we'd be having this conversation nor do I think you'd have a heart beat. I left cause I care, I didn't want to hurt you."

"Well, thank you, I think?" I said with a small giggle. "I'm sorry I made you mad, I let my own anger possess me and I couldn't stop till my anger got weak." I bowed my head. " I'm sorry."

"Sometimes, I wonder why I even wanted you to get your memory back." He spat leaving the room.

I dropped the bandages running up to my room, I slammed the door shut so ferociously the house rattled. "Fuck you!" I screamed tears falling soaking whatever they touched. "Cas where the fuck are you? I need you now." I sobbed dropping in the corner of my room pulling my knees to my chest. "I need you Cas." I said quieter.

"What is it you need?" I heard his voice, my head shooting up. "Why are you crying?" He said rushing over enveloping me in a hug. "Did he hurt you?"

"Emotionally." I said leaning my head on his chest. "Just get me out of here, bring me back to the bunker. Please Cas." I begged.

"You don't have to ask twice" He said. Seconds later I felt the cold floor of the bunker instead of the carpeted room. "Sam! Dean!" He said still hugging me, never letting the embrace falter.

"What?" I heard Dean.

"Yeah Cas?" Sam shouted.

Their footsteps approached. "(Y/N)?" Dean's voice was laced with concern. "What the Hell happened?" He pulled me away.

"I failed, I'm crying because of him. That dickbag. Why didn't I heed your warnings. I'm sorry." I cried hugging him.

"What's up -. What's wrong? What happened?"

"Umm relationship problems." Dean said letting me go and leading me to a chair.

"Just what we need." Sam said sarcastically.

"Fuck you." I replied not missing a beat.

"Woah don't need to be so hostile, I'm sorry, but we told-."

"You told me he didn't love me, no you're wrong he cared so much that when I went full on hulk and said to him to leave while I tortured a demon or I'd also torture him, Jerome, the demon, we did hate each other but we kind of forgave each other through torture, but anyways, Crowley had to leave to prevent himself from hurting me most likely killing me. I went to find bandages but when I came back there was Crowley instead, he said sometimes I wonder why I wanted you to get your memory back."

"But how is that bad?" Cas said. "If you didn't have your memory you wouldn't be crying over him right now."

"He basically said I wish we never met. SAying that if I didn't have my memory, I wouldn't remember ever meeting him before my time in the hospital."