I was possessed by him, but I chose to love him Crowley X reader

Chapter whatever I really kinda lost count

1st person

Waking up with a small smile plastered on my face, man those memories are really vivid sometimes. I sat up holding my sides because of the chill, remembering I had a hoodie somewhere in this room, I found it rather quickly and put it on. Opening my door the scent of bacon rushes towards me surrounding me with happiness. I walked to the kitchen hearing voices. "Do you think she'll tell us about her life?" I heard Dean say.

"Well I guess it is time for an explanation." I said a smile in my voice as I stood in the doorway.

"Oh you-you heard us?"

"No, not at all just thought I'd butt into your conversation and say it's about time for an explanation." I rolled my eyes with a light chuckle, I sat at the table with Sam, "I mean you really deserve an explanation right about now."

"We understand if you don't want to tell us, but we'll really appreciate the insight into what you're life has been like." Sam said from behind the security of a newspaper.

"Why don't we discuss this over breakfast, I feel it may be a better choice."

"That's fine with us." Dean said from the stove.

So after Dean had made us all food we sat at the table staring at eachother waiting for someone to speak. I grabbed a piece of bacon and popped it in my mouth. "That's good bacon." I nodded. Everything became awkward. "You know what, why hide it any longer I'll feel better with it off my chest." I smiled thinly and started explaining what I had remembered of my life.

"Woah woah hey!" Dean said throwing his hands up in the air. " We don't need to know every specific detail, man now I knew how that maid felt." He shuddered.

"Anyways..." I continued with what I remembered leaving out some special details. "So that's what I remember so far, it seems though the demon flashbacks are coming in slower than my real life memories did."

"So you made a deal with Crowley to never be caught for your crimes, after years of him popping up he asks you on a date but you two never really confirmed that you were dating just had constant relations is that it?" Sam raised an eyebrow.

"Yeah sounds about right you just forgot the people I killed inbetween everything."

"Good because I, call dibs." I heard Gabriel say as he wrapped his arms around my shoulders.

"I'm not something you can call dibs on." I smiled removing his arm. "Also, I told Crowley and myself, that no matter how bad the fighting gets I'll always love him." I said a small tear falling.

"Awww man, that's no fair." Gabriel crossed his arms over his chest.

"Sorry bud but it's the truth." I patted his shoulder after getting up and cleaning my plate.

"How long do you plan on staying away?" Dean asked.

"I think I'll stay another day and leave on thursday." I dried my hands on a rag.

"I hope everything goes well, as in I hoped he doesn't kill you." Gabriel sounded slightly angry.

"Well Mr. Grumpy pants, how about we go and play some laser tag? The boys are busy with their stupid plan on closing the gates of hell."

"Laser tag it is!" Gabriel smiled.

"Hope you boys have fun researching." I waved as I walked away.

"Come on Sammy! It's laser tag, a little laser tag won't hurt anything." I heard Dean say as we walked away.

"Abaddon," I heard Sam say, but  it was only a whisper

The sound of two pairs of feet running my way. "Wait (Y/N)," Dean said, they both almost ran me over but they caught me arms preventing me from falling. "You can't go. Abaddon will find you, she'll kill you."