It's your fault

Chapter fifty: I refuse

Taretto! Out of all of them him! The boss man! Mr. Fancy! My breathing pauses for a second as it settles in that my babies father is the boss man of such a horrible place.

I look over at the father of my child who is standing a little behind the doc. He himself looks shocked.

"Let's go be this beautiful baby girl a name shall we?" Says the doctor in a uplifting tone. He turns to Taretto like it's his and only his responsibility. He walks closer to the baby and I along with Demetrius who is now standing next to me. Taretto keeps his eyes on the baby with the smallest smile on his lips.

Standing close enough he stares down at her actually seeming to show affection.

"Salvina..Salvina is what we'll name her." That's not so bad that's actually a very nice name but I just hate the fact that he's the father and the one naming my child. I repeat after him, a nice Italian name. "Salvina..." I wait for a last name. "I need to know my daughters full name." His jaw twitches.

"Salvina Ré." Ré? What's that stand for? I don't bother to ask at this time and he doesn't bother to tell me without asking. "Can I hold her?" Asks Taretto. What! Taretto wants to hold my- I mean our baby? He wants to hold her? I guess he's one of those guys who are tough for ninety percent of the time and the other ten their all soft and caring.

I look at Demetrius and he looks right back at me kind of unsire as am I.

"Yes." My voice tiny and soft as I hold Salvina up for her father to grab her. He actually holds her the right way on the first try, it makes me wonder..is this his first baby? It's weird to say or even think the thought but Taretto looks the part of a or the father. Even though I don't want him to be. Salvina has her little hand on Taretto's big finger. It's so cute. I glance over at Demetrius but he's certainly not happy right now. His fists are clenched, knuckles turning white. His jaw clenched, muscles flexing.

"Do you have the babies room all ready?" I'm snapped out of my daze by the doc. "Um..no." Shit all this time I've never gotten anything for the baby. "Your gonna need to get a crib and everything for the baby, in the mean time the baby needs to stay here and so do you." What, why I don't wanna.

"Don't worry I'll get everything ready for the baby." Says Demetrius. How kind, I know he's extremely pissed right now. "Okay well Alice you need your rest and so does the baby, you guys leave you can come back later." Doc urges. Demetrius doesn't want o leave but Taretto is more understanding. He hands me back the baby and gathers Demetrius to leave with him.

"I'll be back later I promise, I'll go get some things for the babies room." He kisses me, Taretto already turned and walked out the door. The doc still stands in the room paying attention to Demetrius and I. With that he leaves me with the baby and the doc. "Okay now, it's time for you to deed your little Salvina." Uh oh, breast feeding? This is my first baby I have no idea how to do it. "Don't worry I'll talk you through it." That makes me feel better I guess, having help.

"Your gonna need to go ahead and lift your shirt.." god this is gonna be awkward. I follow directions and lift my shirt revealing my tender breast. "Now you wanna position the baby in a comfortable position and just let her suck, it's very simple." Says the guy that doesn't need to give birth to a baby and let them suck on their breast.

But it is pretty easy, feels a little weird but that's life, she's my baby and I'm gonna take care of her no matter what.

"Let her eat for a little bit you'll know when she's done. I'm gonna go get you some refreshments, would you like anything in particular?" This doc guy seems nice. "No not really but thank you."

He leaves and I'm left laying with my beautiful Salvina. Salvina Ré. I rock her in my arms gently and she falls asleep, so cute. My baby Salvina.