Will You Break Me? [Harry Styles Love Story]

We're Back!

 (One Year Later)

"Mom! We're back!" called Louis. I was upstairs in my room. I haven't seen him in a year. He's been on tour and hanging out in New York and L.A. He says they're cool places and that I should go there with him some time. I don't want to though. I like the comfort of my room. I haven't been that social. There's no reason to be social if you can't talk. If all you can do is type, text, or write.

        I looked out my window to see if it was all the guys or only Louis. I saw Niall jump out of the car. He ran in with a huge smile on his face. I saw Zayn get out casually and walk into the house. I heard my mom downstairs screaming at Niall to get away from the fridge. I just rolled my eyes. I didn't understand why she had to scream at everyone. I saw Liam walk out of the bus also and run into the house. I didn't see Harry. Not at all. I didn't care, that much. 

        I decided to go downstairs. I haven't seen them in a year, I knew if I didn't go down there, mom would scream at me. I threw on some slippers looking like this . I didn't care what I looked like. I was just going down stairs to give them hugs and to run back up stairs.

        I walked down the stairs, trying not to make that much noise. I wanted to hear if mom was telling them about what has happened to me. I only heard her telling Niall that he needs to slow down while eating. I walked in, but only stood at the doorway, to see if anyone would notice me. The one who noticed me, Harry Styles.

        He smiled at me. I only looked away. Damn it. What did mom do with my whiteboard? Is she trying to get me to talk again? She doesn't understand, I don't have the strength anymore I thought to myself. I looked down at my hands. One of my cuts on my right wrist was showing. I covered it up, but I saw from the corner of my eye that Harry was watching me. I walked away from the doorway. I walked by Niall, who only stared at me, into the kitchen. I was 99.9% sure I left the whiteboard in there. I heard my mom call me, but I felt the whiteboard was more important. It was my only way to communicate.

        "Amanda! I have it right here! You left it on the kitchen counter! I told you, if you leave it in there again, I was going to throw it away!" 

        Bitch I thought to myself. I walked back into the living room. I grabbed the whiteboard out of her hand and pulled out of my pocket my whiteboard marker. 

        "Thx" I wrote. Louis looked confused, but shook it off and hugged me. He picked me up and spun me he was so happy to see me.

        "I missed you, Love!" I winced.

        "Dont call me love" I wrote.

        "Why?" asked Louis. I was surprised that he didn't ask about the whiteboard yet.

        "Cuz, I dont fall in love anymore... no bf, no love" I was sure to push the whiteboard in his face to emphasize that I meant it.

        "But, how are you not going to get confused when I'm talking about some other Amanda?"

        "Make up a new nickname then. I dont care" He only stared at me. He took my hand and led me outside.

        "Why aren't you talking?" he asked.

        "How bout u ask Harry"

        "What? You're not talking because he cheated on you? Get over him," he said. He was mad.

        "I was in love with him, Lou! U dont understand. No 1 understands, not even Harry himself" I looked down at my feet. I wanted to cry. I haven't had a conversation about him for a long time.

        "Look, Harry doesn't understand what he is missing. You're beautiful and I want you to move on."

        "2 who?Do u c a bunch of guys lined up out the door?" He was about to say something, but I was fuming. I ran back inside and went upstairs. I threw myself onto my bed and just stared at the ceiling.  

No one understands I thought to myself.

Harry's POV

        I didn't mean to hurt her.I don't know where all of that came from. I don't even know how I met that girl. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HER NAME! I was confused and I felt bad for hurting Amanda. I got out of the car and walked into Louis's house. I wanted to talk to Amanda. Louis came in after me.

        "Mom! We're back!" he screamed. I looked at him. He was always so loud.

        "Louis! I've missed you!" screamed his mom. I saw where he got it from.

        "Hello Mrs. Tomlinson," I said going to give her a hug. She brush me aside and went to Niall. I guess she knows what happened between Amanda and me. I walked over to the couch and sat down. I was looking at my phone. I didn't want to look up and have to see another dirty look from Louis's mom. Everyone was loud and running around or jumping on the couches. I looked up and saw Amanda standing in the doorway. She looked different. Her skin was pale. I didn't understand. I remember she was in the pool on a daily basis. Or she went for a walk and would sit in the sun. 

        We made eye contact. She looked way skinnier. But, I still saw beauty. I couldn't help but smile. I missed her kisses. I missed her hugs. I missed getting a text saying, 'Hey babe, what's up?' or just a cute little, 'Love u!!!!' I saved those messages and look at them everyday. I missed her. I saw her look away. While we were on tour, Liam told me I should apologize to her. I knew she wouldn't accept it. I knew she would want more than just a phone call or a text asking to get back together. Besides, she deserved better. What guy goes and cheats on his girlfriend? Especially with a girl he doesn't even know. I didn't even know her name! H can someone do that?! And, I knew if I told her that, she wouldn't believe me. I loved her and I didn't even know what to say to her. I am pathetic. 

        I felt someones hand on my shoulder. I turned and saw it was Liam's. "Tell her before it's too late."

        "I don't know how." I didn't. I loved her and I could never love another girl as much as I loved her. All I could think about all tour was her.

        She was looking down at her wrist and quickly covered her hand with the sleeve of her sweater. I didn't know what to say to her. I felt that if I said 'Hello' I would make things worst. It seems that me smiling at her ruined it a lot right now! She walked through the living room into the kitchen without saying a word. Louis's mom looked like she was going to cry. She called Amanda's name, but she only ignored her.  She started holding up a whiteboard and started shouting about throwing it away if she left it out again. She walked back in and took it. She wrote something on it and showed her mom, but I couldn't read it.

        "Why is she writing on that? Why isn't she talking?" I leaned over and asked Liam. He only shrugged. Louis was happy to see her. He hugged her and spun her around, the way I used to.

        They started having a full on conversation about her nickname and how she didn't want it anymore. She wrote on her whiteboard something about her not falling in love anymore and she doesn't want the nick name anymore. He pulled her outside and was talking her. I badly wanted to know what they were talking about. They were outside the window sliding door. I was too far away to see what her whiteboard said. One word, though, I did see. 

"...Harry"

I wanted to know what she was saying so badly.