How will you fix me ? (Sequel to Porcelain, I'll be...) - ON HOLD

Chapter 8 - Baby please come home

‘’ Okay... THAT dress is absolutely incredible!’’ Megan said to me,

‘’My little sister is gonna marry someone before me ohw’’ My sister said, tears in her eyes. She was with me since I landed in Moncton. I missed her so much. I looked to myself in the mirror. It was true, that dress was perfect. It was made just for me. How could I describe it? There was a lace bodice with a cinched at the waist. The train was a bit long and there were flower decals on the waist. My neckline was formed by a semi sweetheart with a corset back. It was so beautiful.

‘’You should post a picture of your dress on twitter, see what people think’’ Tamara told me

‘’Good idea’’ I gave her my phone and smiled to the camera. She gave it back to me and I posted the picture:

Do you guys like this dress? #weddingdress

A minute after I posted, I got plenty of notifications :

‘’OMG is it your dress? You and Josh are engaged??’’

‘’You look FANTASTIC! When’s the big day?’’

‘’I’ve always ship Jash <3’’

‘’You guys are getting married? That’s so fucking awesome #Jash ‘’

‘’An angel. That is it. You are an angel, so beautiful!’’

And the last on, by a certain Josh Ramsay

‘’ : My baby, my angel, my porcelain. The big day is too far away, such as you. Come back in my arms, come home. This dress is more than beautiful. It was made just for you. ‘’

Seing those comments made me smile. But Josh’s comment just made me feel so good. I immediately texted him:

/Honey, I’ll be there soon. Just a few days before I can hold you in my arms. Be strong, I know that you are. I love you /

I looked the girls and said:

‘’That’s it, that’s my dress’’

I went to change myself. After taking off the dress, I looked through my phone and decided to check Josh’s twitter. There was a few tweets with fans but there was something else. I clicked on a picture and saw Josh, 2 girls from 604 and Matt. They were, without a doubt, drinking and partying. I checked the date : Yesterday. He knows how I feel about him drinking. And still, he decided to do it. After crying in my arms, begging me to come back.. How could he? Tears ran down my face as I came out of the room. My sister saw me and ran to see me.

‘’What’s going on Ash?’’ I wiped my tears off my cheeks and hided my pain behind a smile,

‘’ Nothing.. I’m just...so happy for the dress and the wedding and everything...’’

‘Ohhw come here’’ She hugged me and smiled. I couldn’t tell her that it was Josh, again, who were making me cry. Instead, I decided to text Josh :

/ Seems like you got drunk again... Fucking tired of this bullshit. If your spine don’t heal, don’t even ask why. Pills and beer don’t get along. Well as I see, you don’t even give a fuck about it... /

I closed my phone to make sure he wouldn’t try to call me. I couldn’t talk to him right now, I was just so mad. I joined the girls outside after I talked with the lady for the dress.  We had to get ready because tonight, we were going to a concert. Kevvy’s band was playing in Fredericton so we decided to go. It was 2 hours away from here so we were leaving soon.