Trust life a little (Completed)

21-Is This a Friendship Or More? Pt.2

I was looking into his eyes until he closed his and laid his forehead against mine. Something in me screamed 'You have a boyfriend!' It shocked me back into reality and i had to push him away from me. He stumbled back and gave me a confused look. I jumped off the kitchen island and ran a hand through my hair. What the hell is wrong with me? I started to pace back and forth with both of my hands stuck in my hair, tugging and pulling in different directions. I feel eyes on me so i look up to see Jake's confused face. I look at him and the thought of him kissing Kristina jumps in my mind. Why does he have to fall in love with her? She is a monster! Can't he tell that it hurts knowing that he is in love.

I get shook into reality by Jakes hands on each of my shoulders. I look into his eyes and i feel a single tear roll down my face. He wipes it away and it makes me even more angrier. I slap his hand away from my face quickly and he screams at me, "What the hell is wrong with you?" 

I face him and angrily scream back at him, "You don't get to scream at me right now!"

His jaw tightens and i could see that his stance was stiffening. He ran his hand through his hair and lowers his voice but his anger still shows, "Why is that?"

I feel like dropping down and crying so i sit down on a stool and run a hand through my hair. I huff and start to feel like its not worth it. I just want him to leave and thats what i said. I told him to leave and it hurt. I closed my eyes, waiting to hear the sound of the door closing but i didn't hear it. I look up to see him looking towards the door with a look of sorrow and regret. Why isn't he just leaving? He just stood there and it got me impatient.

I wiped my tears away and screamed at him, "Leave!"

He shoots his head towards me and screams, "Why should I leave, huh? Why should i leave you here to cry while i sit at home and reck my brain on what the hell i did?"

I stand up and yell at him, "Because you love someone!" My voice lowers and it starts to crack when i start to talk again, "You love someone for christ sakes. I don't know who this wonderful person that makes you all so giddy inside but i hope you the best with her. And you know what else..."

I suddenly get interrupted when his lips land on my own lips and i pull away. I look into his eyes and their full of lust. I look back at his lips, that just touched mine. A million thoughts ran through my mind while i was frozen in his arms. He was holding me and scanning my face for emotions but i didn't give any. I was confused. Yeah thats what happens when one of your closest's friends kiss you. I felt one of his hands land on my cheek and it felt so warm and soft. I held the hand that laid on my face and closed my eyes. A flash of realization came into my head and i shot my eyes open. I looked into Jake's eyes and saw that my realization was true! He didn't love Kristina! He loved...me?

His other hand landed on my waist and tugged me closer to him. His body was pressed against me and i realized that i had to do something before i changed my mind. I closed my eyes and leaned forward into his lips. He didn't fight the kiss but instead kissed me back. I was softly kissing him and he had no objection to the fact. Instead he just slowly pushed me into the same island and placed me on it again. He got between my legs and our bodies pressed once more. His hand left my cheek and stayed on my lower back. I felt shivers when his hands went slightly under my shirt and i think he noticed it. He started to speed up the kiss and i had no choice but to follow his lead.

My hands wrapped around his neck rummaging in his hair hoping for him to get closer, if possible. I wanted him and it was a crazy thought that i haven't processed until now. He was kissing me and i was kissing him back, this must mean something. Right? I was shocked back into the present when he bit on my bottom lip. I was shocked so i gasped and he took that opportunity to let his tongue enter my mouth. This dance of ours lasted for so long that i lost track of time. I could stay like this forever in his arms, but all good things end. Right?