Trust life a little (Completed)

16-He Hates Me

I am bending over panting next to the other boys, who are laying on the floor. I stand straight and look to coach. I ask, "Is this how hard your going to push us?"

Coach responds with, "That was the plan. Why?"

"Well next time i want to be the one on the floor."

Coach looked at me surprised and i looked down to the guys, who were also surprised. I looked back to coach and saw that he was going to say something else but the bell interrupted him. I walked off to get my duffle bag and started to walk to the locker room. I turned around to see the boys start to get up from the floor. I sassily wiped my hair and continued to walk to the locker room. I walked into the locker room and started to get changed. I got half way through my changing before i get a text from Jake. I look at it and it says: "You have bigger balls than me, good job :)"

I pulled my shirt on and started to tie my sneakers. Hmm...i guess i am getting out of little shell a bit. I get up and fix my clothes into my bag. I fix my bag over my shoulder and head out the locker room. Right when i step outside i get pulled into two sweaty, muscular arms. When I look up I see my handsome boyfriend, Michael. He has this smirk on the corner of his face and it is so cute that i want to kiss him. So I do, but on the cheek. I wrap my arms around his neck and ask, "Why aren't you out there about to pass out?"

"Well i couldn't pass out without telling my girlfriend that she is too bad ass to handle."

"So am i hearing that the player, Michael freaking Patterson, can't handle this," I said while gesturing to my body.

He bit his lip and said, "Well i guess your hearing correctly." He was starting to lean in to me and i was going to let him kiss me but I heard somebody walking away from us. I turned around to see that Jake was that mysterious person. He was stomping away and clenching his fists. Oh no. I looked back at Michael with panic in my eyes and he realized. "Do you think?"

"Naw, he wouldn't"

"We should check anyways." I got out of Michael's hold and started to drag him towards the gym. Please Jake don't do what we think you are going to do.  Once i step into the gym I can see Jake punching the wall repeatedly. I look around to see that Ethan and Alex were across the gym, scared. Really guys? I try to walk up to Jake and Michael pulls me back. I look to Michael and say, "I am not going to let him hurt himself." Michael let goes of me and i walk up to Jake, cautiously. I see that he has stopped so i say, "Your acting weird again."

He shoots up and says," You know what Dakota, just fuck off. I don't need this at the moment. It is the last day and i am planing on spending it without you," he points at me with his bloody finger.

"Can you at least go to the nurse for your hand?"

He looks at his fists and back at me, "Why do you care?"

"Because I do."

"You know what, i'm done," he says while walking out of the gym. I see that Ethan and Alex run after him and i feel extremely bad. What did i do to get him that mad? Was it even me? This is just too confusing. I put my hands up to my head and ran one hand through my now tangled hair. I was about to break down but Michael put his hand on my shoulder, turning me around. He held both of my shoulders and asked, "are you ok?"

I wanted to slap him across his face and scream at him because we both new that i was not ok, but i didn't. Why didn't I? Well now that's a question that i have to ask my imaginary physiatrist. I moved my hands and just told him that i was alright. I could tell that he didn't believe me at all, but he knew that if he continued to nagging it on then i would get pissed. I hate telling someone one thing and they continue. Like did i not just tell you 2+2=4? If not please nag me but I did so leave me alone. I looked into Michael's hazel eyes and kissed his cheek once more. I felt a shock but it wasn't more that jut a shock. I told Michael that I was going to just hang out here until everyone fills in. 

Michael could see that i was hurt but left anyways. Good move. If he would of stayed i would of distanced myself from him. I sat down and waited like i said i would. Hmm...where is everyone? I decided to go to the halls to look around and saw something so horrific. I saw Jake punching Ethan repeatedly in the face. I froze in my spot. The blood. The sound. The tears. I couldn't stop myself from screaming, "Stop!"

Jake did what i said and looked up from what he was doing. I felt scared when he let go of Ethan's shirt and walked up to me. I looked to see that Alex was coming over to Ethan and trying to clean up the blood. I focused back on Jake and he said unexpectedly, "Love, I told you to leave me the fuck alone in the nice way. So now i have to tell you the mean way. Dakota fuck off or i am going to have to make you fuck off. Got it?" I looked into his eyes and saw that his sweet chocolate eyes were now full of rage. I hate these eyes. They make me shake in my boots because i am scared. He makes me feel like how i felt before he rescued me. This sucks. 

He gritted his teeth so I just nod my head and try not to cry. He hates me. What did i do? He looks into my eyes and they soften but his stance doesn't change. I think i hurt him. Did I? I place my hand on his face but he gently moves it and walks away. I look back to the other two and they are doing alright. I guess i am going to have to take them to the nurse. I run over to them and help up Ethan. I ask, "What the hell did you do?" Ethan raps his arm around both me and Alex's shoulders. Ethan is coughing blood so Alexander answers for him. "He said some stupid shit to Jake."

"What exactly did he say?"

"Its better if you don't let your curiosity get the best of you."

I huffed and carried Ethan all the way to the nurse. The nurse told us to go back to class and that we will see Ethan at lunch, hopefully. I hate that word. It's not a yes or a no its a maybe and a maybe doesn't help me answer my questions. I huff and start to walk into the hallway. I look at the time and realize that i missed gym. Right when i thought that the bell rang and all the students swarmed the hallways. I said bye to Alex as he reluctantly stayed with Ethan. I new that i couldn't change his mind so i started to walk towards my next class, math.

.........................Later That Day.........................

All I have to do is survive math and then get home, without messing things up even more. I look around and start to realize that Jake and Alex wont rescue me from math. I need to face the facts, Jake hates me and Alex is tending to the wounds of Ethan. I felt a pang in my chest when i finished my thought. It's finally sinking in, Jake hates me. He hates me. I feel a swarm of emotions come over me. I haven't had time to actually process everything and now i do. I felt a tear roll down my face and i had no one to wipe it off. I quickly wiped it off and looked down at my paper. I had these few problems left and i needed to finish them before i broke down. I started to actually get them done and i gave it to the teacher to check the answers. 

This time i didn't have to redo the problems instead i had a couple of minutes to myself. I checked the time and realized that their was nothing to do but pack up my stuff. So that's what I did, I putt away everything in book bag and the bell rang. Time to be lonely once again. I got up and walked into the hallway. I had the homework and I was planning on doing it during lunch. I went to the lunch room and sat down in my usual table. Michael tried to make me sit with him in the popular table but i convinced him that i had to do my homework. Michael ended up siting with the cool cats and i took out my packets. I started on my science HW because it was the easiest to do first. 

I breezed through the first three pages when i had the urge to look around. I looked up and saw Jake sitting with Michael, but he wasn't talking. I looked closer and saw that Kristina was kissing his neck. He wasn't talking because he was too busy getting pleasured by her. I felt hurt but i didn't know why. He wasn't my boyfriend, Michael was. So why did it hurt? I couldn't control my self so i frantically put away my papers and headed out of the lunch room. I walked outside and sat on the front steps. I couldn't anymore. He hates me and he loves Kristina. What are the odds of that happening. The girl that he told me not to be is the girl that he wants. He doesn't want me. He said so himself.

I felt the tears roll down my face but i didn't care anymore. I have nothing to care about anymore. He was the one thing that i held on to, my diary. But now he has disowned me and left me to the streets. He was the one person that i could count on to care, even when i didn't. Now he won't save me, he won't even think of me. I bet that he wouldn't even care if i was gone. He wouldn't. No one would. Am i back to square one? Will anyone save me from this stage? Will i die or will i trudge on?