Trust life a little (Completed)

24-What Happened With The Quiet Suicidal Dakota?

The rest of the my birthday was spent with Jake and the family. We had a big diner and surprisingly he behaved. I was so relieved when he decided to go home to pack up. This week was fun. I wouldn't have said that before Jake. He actually made spending time with my family 'interesting'. Well Jake took the ride home with us instead of Blake taking him. The weekend wasn't really that interesting. I stayed home most of the time. The only time i did go outside was to give Bubbles a walk, even then it wasn't interesting like what happened at my grandma's house. I took this weekend to actually reorganize my thoughts because they were more jumbled than a jigsaw puzzle.

I laid there in my bed with Bubbles at my feet, sleeping soundly, thinking. I thought about how Jake was going to act in school around me. Everything that involved Jake passed my mind but when i was on the brick of sleep, i thought about the man that crushed my heart. Michael. Was he happy? Shit anyone could be happy with Kristina by their side. I just hope i don't end up in the same love triangle as Alex, Blake and Knox. That was totally absurd. What was that even about? I waved off the question because i didn't want to postpone my sleep anymore. I soon closed my eyes and dreamt about the old wicked tree that i once knew.

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I walk into school rubbing my eye and clutching my books in my arms. I had already hitched my book bag over my shoulders earlier so all i had to do was get to class on time. I quickly walked through the kids that were surging that were surging the halls to my locker. Only to find Michael leaned against it playing with his hands. I rolled my eyes and hoped to god that he would just go away quickly. I took a deep breath and walked toward him. I looked at him with lazy eyes and asked, "Can you move so i can use my locker?"

He didn't move but instead said, "I'm sorry, Dakota. I made a huge mistake. She means-"

I interrupted him by putting a hand in the air and simply saying, "I don't care."

He tried to plead with him but i just wouldn't care. He made a wall for himself and now he wants to break it down. Not going to happen. I convinced him to leave, well demanded him to. I just needed to get through school without feeling like committing suicide, trust me it's a big thing for me to say that. I put away all my unnecessary books and kept my English books since that was the class that i had. I walked to class and once i put my head on the desk i was out. Out cold. All i could remember after that was the bell ringing and me getting up to quickly get to my other classes. 

Science was of me throwing up because we had a lab based on dissecting frogs. I think i just threw up a little in my mouth. The image of a disgusting frog being split up has scared my memory for life. I recovered by the end of the class and was able to get to Art. Maybe i'll be able to just relax today. Well i will when i stop worrying about Michael and Jake. Yeah i'm worried that i ruined their close bond. I feel so shitty for that. I should have just been an outcast and not even cross paths with them, but no...I just had to. Well the perks are better than the disadvantages. Yeah...I walk to art class and just plop myself in the back of the classroom. I have been tired all day and i have barley done anything. 

Before i put my head down i saw a glimpse of Michael and Kristina walking in together. Yeah so much of begging for my forgiveness and ranting about how i'm perfect and she's not. Whatever...I turn my head and look to the board to see that we have a simple task. Paint what your feeling. How do you paint frustration?

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I waved goodbye to Jake while i walk away from his new car. He got one for christmas but it stayed at his moms' while he was at his dads'. Wow that's a confusing sentence to say. Shit being in the middle of a divorce is really fucked up. I get home and am greeted by my parents while i greet them back. Cameron went off to play basketball and my other brothers went off to live their own lives. I kind of miss them. I sluggishly walked to my room and dropped on my bed. Bubbles sat next to me and we just looked to the ceiling. Ahhh... this is the life. Just relaxing in my bed. No worries in the world. Damn life has been good to me. That you god for sending me an angel from heaven to save me from committing a terrible sin.