Broken Promises

Chapter 2

When I woke up the next morning, I was still on the beach. It must've been very early because the sun was only rising. I sat up and just stayed there for a few more minutes, with the gentle breeze combing through my hair before I decided that I should go home. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. It was quite difficult for me to stand up. There was barely any strength in me. My clothes were still quite wet from the day before. I could feel the cold, morning breeze on my skin as I slowly dragged my feet along the shoreline as the sun rose.

I sat down on the bench at the bus stop and waited for the bus to come. Sitting there, all alone, I couldn't stop myself from thinking about Blake. The bus arrived and I reached into my pocket for my money, to give to the driver.

"What happened to you? You okay, love?" The bus driver asked. He sounded concerned.

"I'm fine..." I replied with a fake smile as I handed him the loose change.

I sat at the back again. I felt so tired, mentally and physically. I watched the sea from the bus window. And as I was watching the beautiful scenery I wished Blake would be there with me.

"I'm here..." I looked away from the window and there he was. Blake. He carefully reached for my pale, bony hand and smiling at me.

"I miss you." My voice was almost a whisper. I tried to blink back the tears but it was useless.

"I know", he kept gazing into my eyes as he disappeared into thin air.

I glanced at my now empty hand. My heart was shattered into tiny pieces and every thought of him made it break even more. Placing my head against the cold glass window, I stared at the beach, at the seagulls flying freely in the pink sky and the sea glistening in the sunlight. I didn't have the energy to think or cry anymore. I just watched the scenery.

When I got home I realised just how exhausted I was feeling. Just as I closed the door behind me, my parents appeared. I couldn't even look at them.

"Where were you?!" My mum screamed at me. My dad just stood silently, holding her. "Do you know how scared we were?! You were gone all night! We called the police and the local hospitals! What were you thinking?!"

I didn't have the energy to react. I was emotionally drained and all I could do was stand and stare at the ground. Quickly she freed herself from my dad's grip and she started shaking me.

"How could you do this to me?! I nearly had a heart attack! Where were you all night?!" She held me in her tight grip. "Answer me!"

Suddenly the world around me started spinning and their voices were muffled. I fell to the ground unconscious. I guess it was only a matter of time until this would happen. I haven't been eating properly, I was sleep deprived and probably dehydrated. My body just couldn't take it anymore. I thought I was dying and something about that thought satisfied me.

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I woke up to a beeping sound. Looking around I noticed that I was in a hospital. The room was mostly white and it was quite small. I turned to my right side, looking down at the ground in disappointment. I hated that I was alive. I used to love life but now I hated every minute of it.

A familiar voice broke the silence of the room.

"Honey... You're up" The voice was my dads. I didn't turn round to look at him and I was too weak to move or speak. Not like I wanted to speak to him anyway.

"Cassie... I know you're hurting but look at what you're doing to yourself. I know how much you loved Blake but even though he's gone, he'll always be with you in your heart and in your memories. Life goes on and we need you here. I want my daughter back... The one that was always so positive and happy. The one that lit up the room with her presence." His voice was quivering.

I felt a hot tear as I heard him leave the room. I realised that I wasn't the same girl as I was before. She was long gone. And she left at the exact same moment that Blake left me. I felt... empty. I lost Blake and myself.