Broken Promises

Chapter 19

The next few days were truly amazing. I felt so much happier. I made the most of my last few days with my auntie and spent as much time with my new friends as possible. Spencer and I became much closer. He began calling me on my phone every night before bed just to check up on me. Turns out first impressions can lie, I guess. 

I haven't seen or tried to see Blake ever since that night. I tried so much not to think about him even though I still loved him and it felt like a part of me was missing. I needed to see if I could do it without him and turns out that I could. It wasn't easy and I missed him every second of the day but I just knew I had to move on no matter how difficult it was for me. I didn't want his death to drive me crazy. I needed to keep on living for the people that care for me. For me. For Blake. 

It got easier talking about him and about what happened. I have been seeing the psychologist every other day and it has been a great help. I don't breakdown anymore when I talk about him or think about him. And when I do talk or think about him, I make sure I talk about the good things that happened almost too long ago. 

~*~

"So, you ready for your last day here?" Spencer asked on the phone. 

"As ready as I'll ever be, I guess." I smiled, enjoying laying in that bed for the last time ever. I was staring at the beautiful view behind the glass of the huge windows of my room while holding the phone gently by my ear. "Gotta make the most of it, right?" 

"Yes," He agreed, laughing. "It's New Year's Eve tomorrow. Time to say goodbye to this year. To this place. To us." 

"I know." I sighed. "It's quite sad. It's all over now." 

"Yeah, I know." He agreed again. "But you can come back again soon." 

"I will." I nodded as though he could see me. "I'll miss you guys so much. Especially you." 

"I'm going to keep calling you every night if you want." He suggested with a chuckle. "Or we could write letters." 

I laughed. "Both ideas sound great, to be honest." 

"Just promise me you'll call me when you need me." His voice sounded a bit vulnerable. "I don't want you to be hurt or sad anymore." 

I closed my eyes breathing in the midnight air. "I promise. I told you I was going to be okay and that won't change. I'm getting better." I said this as reassuringly as I could but to be honest, I wasn't so sure that I was going to be okay. 

The thought of coming home and seeing everyone and everything again scared me more than I was willing to admit. 

"I know. You're so strong, Cassie." 

"Really?" I laughed tiredly. "It really doesn't feel like it sometimes." 

"Well, you are!" He said convinced. "Trust me, you're one of the strongest people I know." 

I smiled at his words. It felt so reassuring to hear them coming from someone like Spencer. "Thank you. Thank you for everything Spencer. It means so much to me. You mean so much to me." I said. "You have helped me so much and I'll never forget that." 

"Oh come on, Cassie." It was all you. I just encouraged you." He disagreed.

I smiled. "Well, I better go so I'm not too tired tomorrow." 

"Yeah. See you tomorrow Cassie. Goodnight." 

"Goodnight." 

I buried myself between the soft sheets as Snowball hopped onto the bed curling up beside me. I was already starting to miss this place. I couldn't believe that I only had a day left here. 

The next morning I woke up to someone whispering my name. "Cassie." When I opened my eyes there were a bunch of people towering over me. "Ready for your last day here?" Auntie Marissa asked. 

When I was finally awake enough to realise what was going on I smiled. "Good morning, guys." Everyone I knew and cared about from here came to surprise me with breakfast. 

"I made you more pancakes like you asked me too," Spencer said hopping onto the bed holding two plates full of delicious looking pancakes.

I took one of the plates and started eating away. "Thank you so much, guys. This means a lot." 

We all sat in my room eating Spencer's pancakes, talking and laughing. As everyone was lost in conversation, I just sat there watching everyone- my aunt, Savannah, Vanda, Jake, Spencer, Nicole. I felt so happy and lucky to have them all there and I felt so sad that I would have to leave this all behind soon. 

"You're gonna come see us again soon, right Cassie?" Savannah asked breaking my chain of thoughts. 

"Huh?" I thought about the question for a bit. "Oh yeah! Of course. I'll try and come during Spring break." I smiled. 

"Yay." she exclaimed. 

"We're going to miss you so much." Vanda sighed.

I smiled at them all. "Okay let's not think about me leaving anymore. We've got this whole day ahead of us. Let's just act like I'm not leaving and it's a normal New Year's Eve." I suggested.

They all agreed and we all got back into our conversation. 

When we finished our breakfast, the boys went downstairs while I got ready. Savannah helped me choose what to wear, while Nicole did my makeup and Vanda straightened my hair for me.  While they were helping me get ready we didn't stop talking. We talked about so many things. It felt good to feel like a normal teenage girl again.