The Journal

Chapter: 19- His Gift and...

Chapter: 19- His Gift and the Sixth Entry

Wednesday, December 17, 20**

I was going, literally. My mother was letting me go to Pierce's house, and of all things on Friday and Saturday, plus she was making me get him a birthday present. It didn't make sense though, I had already told her about how me and Pierce were dating, but she didn't seem fazed at all, instead urging me even more to go.

It was...weird, I mean she wasn't worried anything would happen at all between us. If anything she seemed strangely content, ...happy, like she had wanted this to happen all along. She was pleased I was with Pierce, the tormentor at our school, yet at the same time the successful and intelligent young man.

I'd come to the conclusion, she was just blind. Very blind, actually every adult was blind, they never saw what you saw, never could see through the eyes of a teenager, I think that's stupid. Every adult was a teenager at some point, they probably felt the same way we do, and instead of changing that so we don't feel the frustration they put on us, they amp it up. Again my point put across, adults want you to struggle.

And that's how I found myself in my current situation, standing in the middle of the mall wondering what the hell Pierce would want as a birthday present. I'd literally been in thousands of men stores, looking over everything, clothes, books, colognes, deodorants, hats, socks, books. But nothing I found seemed to scream out Pierce, everything was too bright, too cheery to belong to someone like him.

I ended up browsing around in a random store, naturally going to the back where everything got darker, not like the attractive bright clothes that had drawn me into the shop. I ignored the store clerk, who was dressed in a red shirt and jeans, smiling at me and asking if I needed help.

It was like I was on a mission, a mission there for me as the first place I went seemed as if it drew me there. It was as if I was supposed to be there as the one thing I'd been looking for all afternoon was there, right in front of my face, smiling a little I picked it up, bringing it over to the once cheery clerk who was now scowling at me. I watched as he slowly bagged it, excited to take it home and paid for it, I didn't even stick around to get my change, telling the clerk to keep the change before I was out that shop.

Like I was on fire I ran out of the store, and out of the mall altogether. When I reached the parking lot I quickly hopped into moms car.

She pulled off, driving slowly as she looked ahead her smiling. "So what'd you get him?" She was smiling that creepy smile she seemed to have every time she talked about us now, and for some reason I didn't mind it this time.

"It's a secret." Laughing, I held the bag to my chest, and rode the rest of the way to the house in silence. Oh this was the perfect gift for him. Quite perfect in deed. I don't know if mom caught the creepy smirk that spread on my face, but I knew it was there, I had something planned and this gift was definitely the start. I was planning on making his life hell from now on, if he wanted to be stuck with me, let him, but I wasn't going to make it any easier for him.

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When I got home I quickly ran up to my room, placing his gift from inside the paper bag of the store's into a black gift bag I had picked out. Afterwards I grabbed my journal from my bag, and headed over to my desk. It had been a long time since I'd written in the pages, and not wanting to get behind I was quick to pick it up and a pen. The only thing, well it had been awhile since I'd last written, and although a lot had happened, I still had no idea on how I should start this thing.

I faintly remembered the words many people had spoken to me before. The hardest part is picking up the pen and writing, to get past that don't waste your time thinking about what you're writing, just write. Sighing as it was most definitely spoken than done, I tapped my pen against the desk in irritation before I finally began to write.

December 17, 20**

Dear journal,

It's been awhile since Pierce has found out. Though instead of you know normal things happening afterwards like me avoiding him or something, something much more crazier has taken place. We have started dating. Pierce has now taken the role of being my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first well everything in a while. After that happened I shut away the world, deciding that if he wasn't here, yet I still was, it wasn't a life worth living. I still don't know if that's the right thing to think, I still think the twins are the only things I have worth living for now. I don't know if my world is going to change, I don't really care anymore. But I've realized that Pierce is becoming something way more than what I want in my life. Instead of him staying the guy who blackmailed me by reading this diary or journal or whatever you want to call it, he is slowly trying to wiggle his way into my world. Into my heart, and that scares me because not only have I just met him, but he is the boy who is blackmailing me and he is making me feel things I've never felt before. It's just things are moving way too fast between us and that unnerves me beyond measure. Pierce just might be the end of me, and the strange thing is that I'm kinda starting not to mind the sound of that. Does that make me crazy? Who knows? At least the present I got him for his birthday will make it a little more clearer for me to understand exactly what and how I feel about him, hopefully, I mean its not anything big or anything. It's just that, ...however he reacts to it may be just what I need to figure him and myself out, if that even makes sense.

JE: #6, Zoey

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Authors Note:

So I hope you liked this uneventful chapter, what do you think his gift is? Hopefully soon I'll have the next one up. Don't forget to COMMENT&VOTE!

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Updated, March 07, 2016