The Secrets We Keep [#justwriteit]

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I have to believe you? You lied to me.

You did the one thing which you promised me that you would never do. You hurt me, Kieran, and there is no going back from that.

I asked you never to hurt me. You made a promise to me that you would never do that, that you would never be the reason for the tears which fall at night.

I remember, once, you asked me whether I was happy. We were lying in bed, you had your arms wrapped around me and I was lying on your chest, and you asked me what my head was telling me; you asked me whether I was happy.

At first, I told you that I was content and that I was close to happy but, then I realised something immediately after I told you those words. I realised that, when I was with you, it was the happiest I had been in months and I told you that.

I told you that I wasn't just content, I was very happy with the way things were between us, and when I asked you the very same question, you told me that as long as I was happy then you were happy as well. You told me that you only wanted me to be happy, and those were the words which I had longed to hear for so long from a man's mouth.

Was that a lie? Did you really mean those words, or was it just some shit that you thought I wanted to hear?

I need to know, Kieran. I just, for once, want the truth and I want to know whether you meant those words or whether it was just some shit you spouted so that you could get into my bed.