Sick {HunHan}

Chapter 7 - Weak

Kyungsoo, being the small boy he was, was easily held back by Jongin's muscular arms even though he was older. Jongin spoke calming words to the angry boy, and after a while he'd finally become calm enough to be reasoned with again.
As he sat down beside Jongin on a couch in Luhan's room, he suddenly regretted what he'd done earlier.
He couldn't control it sometimes, it wasn't all his fault, and he was completely calm normally. But he had lost so many friends because of these damned outbursts.

He made people scared. He didn't know how or what caused it, he just did. Maybe that was why he had gotten the nickname Satansoo.
He wasn't proud of it. On the contrary, all he wished for was for that one word to disappear from the world, to be forgotten and to never be heard again.

He slowly turned to Jongin, expecting the younger boy to either look at him with fright or disgust on his eyes, or to not look at him at all.
What he saw though, was the complete opposite.
He was being looked at with... Not pity, not affection, but something right in between; sympathy.
A thing no one had ever shown him before.
And Kyungsoo found himself feeling happy, for the first time in Lay knows how long.

How come, in all this time, he'd never realized how much he missed this feeling? And though it'd been out of reach for so long, it felt... Natural.
He lost himself in the everlasting moment and he lost himself in Jongin's eyes, finding it calming.

Suddenly, the short boy's eyes went down, and he felt something completely unfamiliar. His cheeks were burning, blazing hot, so much it almost hurt him.
Because he'd just noticed he'd been staring into Jongin's eyes for way too long, too long for it to be acceptable.
Now, he'd hate him for sure.

Or so he thought. Jongin looked down too when Kyungsoo did, ripping away from the calming orbs of black silky nothing in the latter's eyes even though he kind of wanted to stay there forever.

Because when he looked at Kyungsoo, he felt calm. Usually he would be the one to calm others down or comfort them when they were having a hard time or if they'd fallen down from a tree and hit their knee.

He was a strong person, and because of that, everyone relied on him and expected him to always be that strong, always care about no one but himself, always be welcoming and happy.
But, the real him was as far from that as he could get. He was two persons at the same time, but he was the only one who knew about the weak side of him that he was so ashamed of. He wished for someone, just one person, to barge into his life and to know everything, he wished for someone to be there for him and to accept him, all of him, without judging him for not being as strong as he gave himself out to be.
And it didn't take him long to realize; Kyungsoo was that person.

They both had two sides to themselves, one of which they were anything but proud of.
Jongin knew exactly how Kyungsoo felt when he looked up at him, scared, after his outburst. He knew the fear of accidentally showing your bad side to someone who was definitely not supposed to know, and he knew how it felt to always have to hide your true self.

None of them were what everyone else thought they were, but Jongin decided to fix that. He didn't know how yet, but he planned to find out and do it no matter what.
And so, the young servant decided to help a boy he'd just met, who was even from a high rank family unlike himself, to get rid of his biggest insecurity.
No matter what it would require from his weak self.

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A/N: 666 words omfg😂

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